Isaiah 40: 30-31

'Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.'

This morning when I was still in bed pondering whether to go for my first lecture, I was so tempted to skip it because I was so exhausted ( having like less than 5 hrs of sleep a day is a great torture ) that I didnt want to move. This scripture suddenly surfaced in my mind. I remember the last time I read this verse was in Sept last year when Siew Wai shared this with me during my period of dryness. I still remember that time how I was comforted by this 2 verses and how God spoke to me through her. I was praying to God last night for his restoration and today he spoke to me when I was semi conscious. Its amazing how God works for the good of his people. Whenever I need him the most, he is always there, comforting me, encouraging me. Just feel so blessed and treasured like the apple of his eye.

Another incident that is so vivid in my mind is the time God spoke to me on that night when I got the news that my dad passed away. Despite the circumstances, I was covered with his love. That night God spoke to me through Jeremiah.

Jeremiah 33:3

'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.'

That week when I was back in Singapore, all I wanted was more of HIM alone.

This is unbelievable I guess to many people but once you have experienced it. Life will never be the same.

I was very frustrated with myself today. My test went haywired.. Full of silly errors.. Calculation mistakes.. I guess I wasnt focussing my mind during the quiz.. Never mind.. There are simply loads of work to complete and I am still learning how to cope with the work load.. Especially today, I felt that I was relying on my own strength.. I felt like a fool man! Why should I rely on myself when I have the support of my Heavenly Father? I need to quieten my heart today.. I really need too.. I know that if I quieten my heart to listen to my Father.. I will be restored soon.. will be.. I know..

Today I got back my Practical results for my first Chem prac.. I would say that this is my worse prac since last year and the reason is because my demostrator did not specify the sections which he wanted us to submit.. I need to put in more effort and use my time wisely..I also need more of HIM .. Really .. I need a lot more of HIM..

It would be my prayer tonite that I would feel refreshed tomolo...

I was thinking a lot for the past 2 days.. things are happening round me.. but yet I cannot write it on my blog.. sometimes it really bothers my mind but wat to do.. its not something so open that I can share openly here.. But I still thank God for placing me where I am now, for giving me family here whom I can relate to, who understand me and most precious of all, love me and accept me.. My mind was disturbed last wednesday.. Yeah, I know its another spiritual attack from the Devil, this is my first spiritual attack this year though I had a couple for such last year.. Everytime when I take on a new task or rather I take on a new responsibility in my life, it just simply strikes me. I remember there is this scripture in the bible which says " Resist the Devil and he will flee from u."

I came across Matthew 10: 29-31 3 days ago. It writes:

Verse 29: "Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father."

Verse 31: " So don't be afraid: you are worth more than many sparrows."

Because we are so valuable to God, we should brave difficulties in his light. We need to focus our mind on Him who is our Redemmer, the Lord of all creation, who is magnificent, wonderful and glorious.

The first week of Uni passed so quickly.. I was sick the whole of last week.. Feeling terrible at times though I didnt bother to show it. Last friday, my brother came down to OCF to see me before he moved to Flinders on Saturday. I havent seen him since he left Singapore on the second week of Feb. I was happy to see him obviously..haha.. He is not my blood brother la.. But he is my Brother in Christ.. U know wat, last friday some of them really thought that we were siblings. But YJ was the funniest.. he even said that we resembled each other.. Gosh! haha..

Last weekend was busy too.. Went to Chong Yau and Lynette's place for the E camp meeting in the morning.. We settled very much all the stuff already. This coming friday will be the beginning of our registration and also this friday is my first time leading worship in OCF.. I am really excited about it.. This year, I have taken on more responsibilities than I thought I would be this year.. Despite my busy schedule at Uni and committment at OCF and in church, I am enjoying every moment of my life now.. Glad to be absorbed in the love of God.. Each day is filled with anticipation..

Lately there has been lots of prayer thoughts on my mind...thinking & thinking.. Giving thanks and Praising God for who he is and how he has blessed me..

Yeh!!! Finally today I got a new mobile phone with a wonderful plan.. I went to three mobile today. I have been eyeing on the latest LG phone since a week ago, finally today went down with all the documents and signed the 2 year contract with them.. My new mobile is really beautiful. Its in my favourite metallic green.. CooL Colour I must say! Actually at first I wanted to get the Nokia 6280 but it only came in black color * sobs* Too manly for me so in the end I decided against it.. Anyway the LG phone I have now has the latest features which I also love very much and now I can call all my friends in Australia, Singapore and Malaysia.. cos of the Free International Calls.. Great DeaL.. I guess I will be best buddies with my phone real soon... I will still be keeping my prepaid Optus line for the convenience of my friends though...

I have been having a flu since Sunday.. Sniffing here and there.. spreading germs I know but I cannot help it.. Mum has been nagging me to taken Vitamins but I have been putting it off again and again.. I better take some tonite ( I dun wan to be a germ carrier in OCF on Friday ) Anyway I am looking forward to the Bible Study as well as the weekend coming up..

Uni started a few days ago.. Its getting tiring and busy.. U wont believe it but I have already at least 2 tutes and 1 report up my neck n its suffocating me slowing but hopefully not surely.. Just now the chem lecture was realli horrible.. it went so fast especially towards the last part.. Its the NMR thing again.. my memory is failing again.. lots of recap from last year.. Guess I have to dig up my notes again.. sadly but surely.. I will be having my first pract this yr later in the afternoon.. should be fine.. I hope it ends early then I can go home and rest before rushing off to church this evening.. I am wondering if I should make a committment for the Accelerate program at Edge church every fortnight.. Dun think I have the time la.. But still.. Will see how it goes.. This year I am still unsure if I am taking a disciple.. probably not.. too many things to focus on.. Will be praying about it though... Need some encouragement.. Anyone knocking?