I was reading through 1 particular email over and over again last night. An email sent from Sydney with regards to the mission trip that I am going on. In the email, it addresses a lot of different portfolios waiting to be taken up. There was much more than I expected and we are so lack in manpower. I am not worried, just that as I pray for the portfolios, its my honour to have my brothers n sisters in Christ to pray alongside with me, to support what God is doing.

The portfolios are as follows:

1. *Admin/treasurer*
2. *Fund raiser*
3. *Logistics*
4. *Prayer IC*
5. *First Aid*
6. *Reporter/photographer*
7. *Worship leader*
8. *Devotional times*
9. *Skit/song/drama Director*
10. *Teachers*
11. *Secret encourager and encouragee *

Most of us will need to take on 2 portfolios. Frankly speaking, my heart is keen on taking on worship leader and devotional times but yet I know that both are tough. I have not decided on anything yet. And I have no intention to decide on my own. I need a spirit guided, spirit convicted decision. The decisions will be made on 16th Sept at our meeting. Now, this is one of the main things on my heart. Please pray for me as well as for the rest of the committee.

U may not know them in person, but they are your brothers and sisters in Christ. Let us go forward together. Please pray for Aaron, Leanne, Jing, Desiree, Devi, Vivian, Poh Bwee as well prepare ourselves for what is coming.

Matthew 9:37-38

37Then he said to his disciples, "The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. 38Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field."

Oh yeah! Forgot to add.. Pray for my genetics lecturer too.. he is having a bad throat at the moment .. no voice for a few days already.. so we had 3 genetics lectures called off ( Including the one this morning which I rushed for.. it explains why I am blogging now when I am supposed to be in medical sch..I am not lazying around ok.. really no lesson..). So please pray for him ( Michael ) as well.. Hope he recovers soon..

Muackz..Muackz..Muackz..

Its the beginning of a new week today. Usually I dun go Uni from Citi TownHouse so today somehow or rather I under estimated the time to get to Uni.. yesterday I had a late night.. doing my presentation slides and script till abt 2.30am in the morning.. However I was not tired at all.. too hyperactive!!! Then Sally popped up on msn too.. so had a chat with her as well..haha.. Yesterday's party was good. One of the most memorable gatherings. Everyone was sporty, the game was good.. food great.. Nice Fellowship.. Havent had so much laughter in a while already.. pretty caught up with work and busyness..

I am physically much better now.. My back no longer hurt as much as before.. thanks to the little bright pink tablets siew wai gave me on sunday morning.. Cant remember what they were.. but they helped to ease the pain a lot.. thank you so much.. N for all those who prayed for me n comforted me.. thanks too.. Everything is good now.. N I treasure it all..

Also for my dearest coursemates.. Feli, Dorothy, Amanda.. love u all..
Sydney OCFers .. Linus, Tracy, Sam.. Thanks for listening to my ramblings over the last few days.. And uplifted me in prayer..
Connect group -- Deb, Liwen, Samuel.. muackz..
OCF AU -- Too many to mention but I remember each of u guys..

But above all, I just want to lift my praises to God who is the great healer and him who brought the forgiveness.. I was touched during Sunday worship and sermon.. especially during the last song about God as the healer and the one who brings forgiveness.. N the sermon pierced deep in my heart.. its just so timely and awesome.. all the knots are released n my spirit set free from the past hurts..

Psalm 30:1-3

1 I will exalt you, O LORD,
for you lifted me out of the depths
and did not let my enemies gloat over me.

2 O LORD my God, I called to you for help
and you healed me.

3 O LORD, you brought me up from the grave ;
you spared me from going down into the pit.

I am happy again!! Yeah!!! The burden and the hurts are lifted up from me.. Thank you for all who have shown me concern.. too many people to mention here.. Just wanted to let u guys know that I appreciate u all..

God has brought forgiveness and healing upon my life..Spirit restored..

I dunno what to say.. I m hurt.. really I m .. I m still trying to nurse the wounds in my heart n on my back.. I dun wan to seek attention yet at the same time I wish people would care.. I am a human being still.. fragile n weak.. Today in connect grp after some people left.. I just sit there by myself and keep quiet.. Not that I wan to keep quiet but my back was really hurting and I feel feverish all over.. I just didnt want to say or do anything.. I was uncomfortable n I was thinking through some issues.. After that someone actually told me that I look fierce that noone dared to come near me.. but what did I do? I just kept quiet thats all.. I need my moments of quietness.. I am an extrovert yes.. But I wan to be quiet at times..I was just feeling discomfort, hurt n I didnt know what to do with myself.. I didnt want to speak because with my mood, I may by accident hurt someone but yet I was wrong still.. On the way back, I spoke to the people in the car, I asked if I had in anyway offended them.. but no they were not.. its just one person feeling that .. it made me so negative..cos the person in some way assume that people are feeling the same way too.. like perhaps I am a wounded animal.. if they come closer I would probably explode.. But the fact is I was controlling a lot.. except towards the end when I really couldnt take it anymore.. Only God knows how exactly I am feeling.. I m hurt really I m.. its resolved now no doubt abt that but still I feel the pain and hurt.. Its hard to be happy and energetic when I am physically n emotionally weak n in need of support.. I am already trying my best.. so please dun expect a lot from me.. I am afterall a human.. I have my weakness..

I hope everyone understands.. I m really down.. I need ur support n prayer..If I have in any way offended anyone.. I am truely sorry..And I seek ur forgiveness..

One thing I am sure of.. I am trying my best to accomodate everyone.. at least I am trying.. I am not perfect.. so give me some space and allowance if I may ask..

Food

I like food..They make me happy.. when I am stressed or upset, I look out for certain food and avoid some others..What do I look out for?

In no particular order:

1. Salmon ( Must be raw.. I hate it cooked.. taste weird..)
2. Sushi ( U can try looking for me in sushi train.. u may see me there )
3. Nata De coco ( But must be lychee flavour.. other flavours not entertained )
4. Bubble tea from cubic ( usually I will buy green apple flavour with chewy bubbles )
5. Orange Chocolate ( Cant really find here.. sad )
6. Home cooked soup ( Have the Mummy feel.. taste not Important )
7. Flavoured milk ( only strawberry flavour wanted.. Dun mind plain milk on my good days
though)
8. Black sesame paste ( A lot of u dunno I like this.. I eat that in secret 3 times a week.. haha..
even when I am in good mood )
9. German sausage and pancakes with toppings ( when r we going Pancake house again? )
10. Wicked Wings ( haha.. yum!! )

These are not hints or anything.. Just have this sudden thought..so update u guys!!!

Its is a bad day.. really bad.. feeling so pressurize n overwhelmed with some stuff.. stuff even if I share wont help either.. It just brings more judgement on me.. Not that I never tried..

This is my blog.. Its my space to blabber whats on my mind.. its my deep thoughts.. A lot of stuff cross my mind every day..

I went for my immuno tute today.. so lost in the discussion.. I didnt prepare much I admit.. Serious lack of time.. then suddenly in the middle of tute.. the fire alarm went off.. so we had to evacuate.. then for some reason I lost my tute grp after that.. dunno where they went.. in such a fix.. to top it up I fell down twice this week..once on sunday in front of my close friends ( but they didnt care.. not a joke ..its true ).. n just now a bad fall down the stairs in Uni..

I think its enough for today.. rushing for my prac now..

It was a bad day for me..
Feeling terrible..
Stressed N upset..
Swallowing more than I should..
Multi-tasking almost all the time..
Contemplating stuff..
Never to feel forced..
Sharing n seeking advice..
Time management..
Letting go whatever I can..
Wishing I can sleep less and do more...
Talk less, do more..
More time with God..
God is the ultimate solution..

Matthew 16:26

What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?

I am not only a feeler but I am also a thinker. I have my reasons for doing certain things and I have my reasons for letting other stuff pass. I consider a lot. Dun pass any judgements on me for u know the scriptures well..Do not compare me with others.. for such comments can be destructive and really discouraging at times.. These things can't affect me much anymore.. I can better control my emotions now.. Not I say but from Siew Wai today.. What she is said is true..

Matthew 7: 1-2

"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."

Its a reminder not only for myself but for everyone else.

Dun ask me to give up the mission trip. I never will. Its my life and I choose to put Christ at the throne of my life. Respect my decision. It has been set since July and I will go all the way out for it. Even if u dun agree with it. U cannot and will not change my heart and my mind. I am looking forward to the mission talk this coming sat by Dr Calvin Mah as well as the mission trip planning coming up in my 2 week break. I m keen on my portfolio.. God is working through a weak vessel as me.. I will emerge Victorious through his power..

I welcome all constructive and genuine comments for improvement. N I m serious.. only with contructive comments from people who love me, I can improve and I want to improve.. not for myself but for the body of Christ..

My Princess...
You'Re Never Alone

You never need to hold on to anyone out of fear of being alone, My precious princess. I am with you wherever you are. I am a friend who walks in when the world walks out. I created you to have strong relationships, My Love, and I see your desire to be close to someone. If you seek me first and come to Me with your wants and needs, I will choose your friends for you. I will also bless those friendships abundantly. Don't settle for less than My best just to fill your schedule with people to see and places to go. I want to reach you with the reality of My presence in you first, then you will be ready for real relationships that are orchestrated by Me.

Love,
Your King and your Best Friend

I was hurt yesterday.. Physically not much.. But emotionally I was.. some of u reasoned things out with me.. thank you so much.. all your time n effort on me.. I know u guys really care.. I wont mention here what happened.. if anyone is genuinely concerned.. I may share with you..
I committed all to God last night.. Prayed for a long while.. told him entirely how I felt .. seeking Him with my whole heart.. After prayer, I looked into my devotion book.. I saw the above letter.. I knew its God speaking to me directly..

He said I never need to hold on to anyone because he is there for me always.
He said he is a friend who will be with me under all circumstances.
He said he sees my desires. He calls me by name to come to him with all my wants N needs.
He said he will provide for me the relationships with him as the centre.

My spirit is restored and lifted by God alone..

" And be sure of this:
I am with you always,
Even to the end of the Age."

Matthew 28:20

For those who are wondering when the due date for donations is .. it is gonna be on 30th Sept.. I have received a few replies donating to that cause.. Thank You so much.. Lets get the ball rolling..

Hey guys.. there is something I want to bring to ur attention.. Its regarding the World vision Australia 40 hours famine.. I just knew about it yesterday after my friend ask me to support her by donating to a good cause.. Basically the famine started last night from 8pm till Sunday 12pm.. This is your chance to give back to kids just like you in East Timor and Southern Africa. Every $40 you raise helps feed and care for 8 kids for one whole month! So how many kids can you help? I think the money raised will be of good cause.. so I would like to urge everyone to give every little u can .. every little counts..

Its sad and heart wrenching to see the poor kids suffering at Third world countries while we are having abundance here and we are just so blessed by God.. Funds raised in Famine 2006 will help poor families in East Timor, as well as in Mozambique, Tanzania and Zambia, where many kids are so poor they eat only a few mouthfuls of food everyday..

Therefore I will like to urge u guys to support these people in a little way which we know we all can.. I have done my part what about u? Its very simple.. Just a little of ur pocket money can bring a smile to the little children ..

If u would like to donate, please inform me .. so that I can let my friend know.. she is collecting the donations.. A receipt will be issued.. Remember that the money will be used to bless others.. How can we show that we love others if we have no action...

1 John 3: 16-18

16This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. 17If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? 18Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.

For more information, please check out at http://www.worldvision.com.au/40hourfamine/

Your donations will be greatly appreciated..

Thank You..

What is happening to me?

I am eating strange meals and at super odd hours ( no time to cook .. I want to cook but no time ). I just eat watever I can find..

I am sleeping and waking up at odd hours. Serious lack of sleep .. who wants to close up n look at my dark eye circles.. u r very welcome..

I have to bring my organiser wherever I go cos I have trouble remembering stuff .. all my appointments n assignments.. They take up too much brain space .. I rather write them down then remember them..

I have adapted to reading in the bus to save time...

All things I can forget N neglect except God.. I always have time for Him.. He is always first in my mind.. Thank God.. He always reminds me to look to him.. Thank You Father..

He makes me smile..

The past few weeks have been so busy.. The assignments r endless.. I m tired.. My friend is coming next week but frankly speaking I really have no time for her.. Tuesdays r my worse days.. Did my chem prac today.. Thank God I had a really smart partner.. an aussie guy.. we really worked well together.. n a fantastic demostrator as well.. seriously without them things could have been worse..God has blessed me.. I went for prayer meet today in the mist of my prac.. I had a short break in between for 30 mins.. so I thought it would be good if I joined them for prayer.. Was praying with Jan N Handy.. sharing some prayer points with them.. Handy said something which was very encouraging for me.. he said having to teach bs in another language which is foreign to u is actually a good thing.. For God is preparing me to go out for him in December this year.. He said.. do u think u will be able to bring forth God's word in Thailand in the language the u r comfortable in? u may not.. he gave me a different perspective which I did not think of myself.. I am glad I spoke to him..

Tina passed me a book yesterday on missions. It is entitled "His Last Command, Our First Priority" by Jack Hanes.. I read this book during my bus journey today. Its an inspiring book I would say.. I wouldnt update much abt it today cos I have only read a chapter of the book.. will update more soon..

Just want to leave this verse for all:

Mark 16:15

" Go into all the world and preach the Good News to everyone, everywhere."

I just came back from William's farewell party.. Mixed emotions.. I cried just now.. when william was telling me something personal.. it was shared in a big group but it was to each individual.. What he said brought me back to the times we enjoyed last year.. the time when we met the other OCFers in Singapore.. the times spent with Richard and the oldies.. the great times we had will always be remembered.. also the christmas eve spent with his sister n him.. I still remember where we went.. he came with his family to singapore just a few days before christmas and he rang me..I met up with his sister and him on that special christmas eve and we had quality time together.. brought them around.. its not the places but the time in fellowship that I remember n I treasure.. now thinking back.. I am glad that I did have time for William.. so glad that the time is well spent ..so glad for such a brother to come into my life.. he will always be remembered.. in my heart.. Just like Richard n chok has a special position in my heart.. So will William have his position.. Though I never say.. but Richard and chok comes to my mind at times.. My dear brothers that I will always miss..

The box of little notes n the photos have all the love we have for u.. Treasure it.. We love u...

Yesterday was a wonderful day.. I didnt do a lot but I had great fellowship... In the morning time I was at Uni, was with Yingying n Leny together trying to crack out our Chemistry Summative Tute.. It was due at 12 noon so we went a couple of hours earlier to try to discuss the stuff.. I dun like doing the 2 and 3 dimentional stuff.. It hard for me cos I can't visualise.. Gals are usually bad at such stuff.. Not making excuses for myself ok? I m trying very hard already.. haiz.. nvm.. anyway the whole sem chemistry is going to be on 3 D stuff.. Our lecturer was saying he will get us the molecular modelling kit but when is that happening.. hurry up la.. its in bad enough condition already.... Thank God my other 2 subjects Immunology and Genetics are doing fine.. understand almost everything so far..

I was at the Singapore Association stall the last few days but I wasnt doing anything much.. I wasnt there for long also.. Had other things to do.. But I spent some time chatting with Bridgette and Phyllicia.. Trying to be of some help.. But my heart wasnt into it.. probably cos I have so many other things in my mind.. things that I place of higher priority.. ya.. My studies and OCF obviously take a higher priority rite.. ahaha.. everyone must agree ok..

The last few days I did pretty much a lot of studies.. did my readings.. my tutes.. I like immuno tutes the best.. the sessions r always interesting and interactive.. everyone is so enthusiastic in contributing.. me also of course..I was reading some books also.. yeah..The time was well spent..

On thursday night when I was doing my readings.. Melissa rang me.. She wrote a song for william and asked if I had the time to practice.. so yesterday in OCF, we sang the song to william, looking at him intently.. He was moved, I can see that, straining his ears to catch the words.. I knew he wanted to keep the lyrics of the song.. so I passed him my copy.. I know he will treasure it..

People come and people go
Some of whom I now dont know
You came along became a friend
Never knew the impact you'll have on me
Somehow I wasn't the only one
You left your footprints on many more..

Thank You for walking beside us
Together through the joy and the pain
You're a gift, you will be missed
All your words will be treasured
All you've done, we'll remember
We wanna say thank you

This is the song specially delicated to William.. Tonight is the night delicated to William as well.. His last night in Adelaide.. Less than 2 days, he will be going home.. Yesterday he took some photos with us.. I had an individual photo with him as well.. a photo that both of us always wanted.. n I will always cherish the memories I have with this brother who has impacted my life.. I dun want to cry tonight but yet I know I will..I shall stop decieving myself..

William was my pianist during my worship session yesterday.. I had a great team, the worship flowed though we didnt have a good start.. so I started it again.. After the session, choy kor told me that there is improvement from the last time I led.. I was happy not because I led well but because worship is an important part prior to the things that come after. We got to set out hearts rite before God before anything can continue. God desires our worship and we are created to worship him..

I have so much to update today.. haha.. still want to talk abt my BS group.. I had 3 new faces in my group.. all young guys from HK.. doing foundation and high school.. they are like 17 years old.. can u believe it? so young.. but they are yearning for the word of God.. Thirsty to be filled.. Choy kor was in my group.. haha.. I dragged him in by force.. haha.. no la.. not force.. its charm..haha.. sounds nicer..Ok let me rephrase it.. it is he joined my group willingly k.. good.. the session was conducted in both Cantonese and English. The main part in English by me and any further questions in Cantonese by Choy kor and keith.. I understand Canto but I cannot speak it.. n now have having my new members.. I really want to learn canto.. I want to be able to communicate with them in the language that they r comforable in.. Just want to thank God for their open hearts, open sharing.. though short but its good.. especially for Leo and Paul. They are cousins but first time in OCF.. they just came to adelaide.. Now staying at the same homestay as Anderson.. Initially both Leo and Paul are shy but they are not anymore.. I m just glad.. very happy.. Next week , we will be going out for street E on thursday (thats confirmed.. from 1pm to 2pm).. and probably I will go on Monday and Wednesday as well.. Not sure of my schedule yet..

I got to get some work done now.. Just wanted to encourage all who are believers to be ambassadors of Christ. We are to make disciples of Christ.

Matthew 28

18Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

My friend is flying from Sydney to see me soon.. I am excited about it.. Gonna happen in week 5 n now is the middle of week 3.. However, week 5, 6, 7 r going to be my most busy weeks before the term break.. I was just scheduling everything in my organiser yesterday while waiting to go for Justin's B day party at Pancake House.. Well guys.. U wont want to imagine the shock I gave myself.. big time shock.... There is actually more assignments, more presentations n more reading this sem.. more contact hours as well..Been working hard from week 1 but still a bit behind in schedule.... Thank God, I have really good tutors this semester.. Jamie B for Immunology.. He is really good man.. can get us to participate n at the same time I dun feel stressed.. Last sem, I had Chris Wong for microbio n stressed big time.. Thank God I hardly see him this time.. except in pracs which is inevitable.. Dan is my tutor is genetics.. he is great too, always managed to explain the concepts clearly though his tutes stretch a bit long.. today was almost 2 hrs of genetics tute.. But it was alright.. managed to clear my doubts.. This sem I m pretty lost in Chemistry.. we r doing the 3 dimentional thing which is so foreign.. like molecular modelling stuff.. couldnt figure out the stuff.. Need to get that cracked out soon.. but I m just one of the many who is having this problem..

Father, U alone knows what I m going through.. I am relying on U to supply all my needs..

Yesterday was Justin's b day.. We had such great fun n fellowship.. For those who didnt come .. hey u guys missed out..especially on the sabo part.. I think its the worse sabo ever.. But Justin was pretty game for it.. so it was alright.. I met Ian today.. he still complaining that he stinks.. cos apparently,he was a co-victim last night.. haha.. But I guess it is a memorable birthday for Justin.. Its the love of our family..

This weekend is going to be quite emotional for many of us..

William is leaving for good soon.. I just know abt it today just before I went for evening service.. Felt a bit down after I knew that.. A lot of memories came back to me..Memories from last year all the way to this year..

I remembered the times where we studied for exams together, struggled together, the times where we confided in each other.. the things that he taught me through his experiences, the word of God he taught me, the skills in worship leading..the encouragement he gave me as a great brother in Christ.. a lot of things..

He is someone I respect for his great love for God.. He is someone I will miss.. He has someone who has guided me.. But all these memories remain precious to me..

But I know God will bring him to a place where he can use him.. I am glad that he has chosen to obey God. To go down this path is never easy..

William spoke to me just now.. He was holding back his tears.. I will miss him for sure.. Today when he told me he is leaving.. it came as a big shock to me.. I didnt expect it to come so soon.. I was in a daze during worship this evening.. everything rushed back to me.. Richard as well.. But I was focused during sermon... There are some people that he wanted to meet on sat night.. I just sent out an email to inform them.. Really hope they can come.. I know its important to him.. Just want to do watever I can for him.. Just feel sad now.. though I know God has his best interest at heart..

Food for Thought:

What Kind of Person M I?

Its only towards the end of week 2. But I am so loaded with Uni work.. Doing 3 subjects this sem.. Genetics, Immunology N Virology and Chemistry.. but there is so much reading n assignments.. Even weeks are the most choking.. cos odd weeks need to hand up double the number of assignments.. My weekends r always burnt doing these stuff.. I wish I can have more time in a day to have some time for myself.. but no.. cannot waste time..

Just need people to pray for me:

Prayer request:

1. Regarding approval for the mission trip by OMF
2. Time Management
3. Relationship with God

Thanks guys!

My Princess.. I will redeem the time for u..

I know that sometimes you look back on your life with anguish and regret -- so much time wasted on things that did not matter. But take heart, My Love. I am your redeemer, and today is a new day. So start now by seeking My plans, which are to give you hope and a future. Just as I used hardship in Joseph's life to lead him to a position of leadership, influence, and blessing, I've also called you. I will use your past experiences to teach you and not torment you. Remember, My Princess, I will always turn into good what others meant for harm. I will redeem what was lost and place you on the narrow road that leads to an everlasting life.

Love,
Your King and Your Redeemer

This letter comforted my heart so much this morning that I felt that I need to share it.. I should look ahead to what is before me.. Forget abt the past disappointments.. the past sorrows.. the past unhappiness..Think about the blessings that are in my life..

I have fond memories of sydney, of the place, of the people, of the camp...
I remember during my sydney trip this july, the Lord spoke deep into my life through 2 people. One of them I shared alot of things with. The other one gave me scriptures which I know is not by coincidence for some reason. The scripture is still dwelling in my heart now. Its from Jeremiah 1:

The Call of Jeremiah

4 The word of the LORD came to me, saying,

5 "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."

6 "Ah, Sovereign LORD," I said, "I do not know how to speak; I am only a child."

7 But the LORD said to me, "Do not say, 'I am only a child.' You must go to everyone I send you
to do and say whatever I command you."

8 Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the LORD.

9 Then the LORD reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, "Now, I have put my words in your mouth.

10 See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant."

The last 2 verses are strong words.. I dunno what life lies ahead for me.. But I know my future is secured in the hands of God..

I went for a mission talk this morning with Tina. I m glad that I did made it for the talk cause something happened last night within me that I was struggling with many things in my heart. Struggling to find my way through all the things that r coming now. In my decision to head for a mission trip.. I once had doubts abt myself. I feared of going to the trip with no preparation cos the training is in Sydney. The devil is trying to get me but the Lord comforted my soul this morning during my time of quietness and when I was doing meditation on this book called My Princess, Love letters from your King. I will share abt that a bit later. The mission talk this morning was by kenneth and Mark who are both missionaries to India. They shared their experiences and the struggles they faced. I learnt a lot. Though I cannot be there for training in Sydney, the Lord has opened up another way for me. Another avenue of training for me in sharing the experiences of other missionaries every thursday morning. Indeed God is wonderful and marvellous. He will prepare u for the things which is ahead of u.. Trust in Him!

Last Sunday, I spoke to Pastor Nick regarding the mission trip to Thailand.. He has given his blessings.. I am excited abt this trip.. trying to read up all I can to prepare myself.. I dunno wat to expect but I know God knows what is ahead of me.. Pls pray for me.. Its a big decision.. But I really want to do it.. it has been my desire since I was 16.. finally now.. I am heading towards my heart's desire.. When I was 16, when I had mission trips in my mind..But then I thought to myself.. dun be silly.. how can this ever happen.. I said to myself then.. U r so young n come on.. u know nothing.. But no matter how young we are, no matter how weak we are.. Our Almighty God will prepare u for his purpose..Trust in Him..

The following scriptures just surfaced in my mind and is making imprint on my heart. These scriptures I memorised them last year but they didnt come to my mind again until now..right now.. Its as if God is speaking..Its just timely encouragement for me to rely on HIM..

I Tim 4:12
"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity."

2 Corinthians 12:9-11
9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

My heart is just so stirred now..

U alone are God.. We declare the glory of ur name..
Reign in all the Earth..Jesus..