Many many years ago, I read this poem in one of my devotional books which deeply touched my heart.. Just thought it would be good to share with all.. It has always encouraged me and lifted my spirit.. God brought this into my heart once again today.. I am not depressed, neither upset or stressed.. I just want to share what encouraged me then.. hopefully it encourages my dearest..

Never Alone

I've seen the lightning flashing,
And heard the thunder roll,
I've felt sin's breakers dashing,
Trying to conquer my soul;
I've heard the voice of Jesus,
Telling me still to fight on,
He promised never to leave me,
Never to leave me alone.

The world's fierce winds are blowing,
Temptations are sharp and keen;
I have a peace in knowing
My Saviour stands between;
He stands to shield me from danger,
When earthly friends are gone.
He promised never to leave me,
Never to leave me alone.

When in affliction's valley,
I'm treading the road of care,
My Saviour helps me to carry
My cross when heavy to bear,
My feet entangled with briars,
Ready to cast me down;
My Saviour whispered his promise,
Never to leave me alone.

-- Anonymous

Hebrews 13:5

"Never will I leave you;
never will I forsake you."

Ephesians 6

The Armor of God

10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.
11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.
14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,
15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.
16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.
17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.

I was reading through 1 particular email over and over again last night. An email sent from Sydney with regards to the mission trip that I am going on. In the email, it addresses a lot of different portfolios waiting to be taken up. There was much more than I expected and we are so lack in manpower. I am not worried, just that as I pray for the portfolios, its my honour to have my brothers n sisters in Christ to pray alongside with me, to support what God is doing.

The portfolios are as follows:

1. *Admin/treasurer*
2. *Fund raiser*
3. *Logistics*
4. *Prayer IC*
5. *First Aid*
6. *Reporter/photographer*
7. *Worship leader*
8. *Devotional times*
9. *Skit/song/drama Director*
10. *Teachers*
11. *Secret encourager and encouragee *

Most of us will need to take on 2 portfolios. Frankly speaking, my heart is keen on taking on worship leader and devotional times but yet I know that both are tough. I have not decided on anything yet. And I have no intention to decide on my own. I need a spirit guided, spirit convicted decision. The decisions will be made on 16th Sept at our meeting. Now, this is one of the main things on my heart. Please pray for me as well as for the rest of the committee.

U may not know them in person, but they are your brothers and sisters in Christ. Let us go forward together. Please pray for Aaron, Leanne, Jing, Desiree, Devi, Vivian, Poh Bwee as well prepare ourselves for what is coming.

Matthew 9:37-38

37Then he said to his disciples, "The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. 38Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field."

Oh yeah! Forgot to add.. Pray for my genetics lecturer too.. he is having a bad throat at the moment .. no voice for a few days already.. so we had 3 genetics lectures called off ( Including the one this morning which I rushed for.. it explains why I am blogging now when I am supposed to be in medical sch..I am not lazying around ok.. really no lesson..). So please pray for him ( Michael ) as well.. Hope he recovers soon..

Muackz..Muackz..Muackz..

Its the beginning of a new week today. Usually I dun go Uni from Citi TownHouse so today somehow or rather I under estimated the time to get to Uni.. yesterday I had a late night.. doing my presentation slides and script till abt 2.30am in the morning.. However I was not tired at all.. too hyperactive!!! Then Sally popped up on msn too.. so had a chat with her as well..haha.. Yesterday's party was good. One of the most memorable gatherings. Everyone was sporty, the game was good.. food great.. Nice Fellowship.. Havent had so much laughter in a while already.. pretty caught up with work and busyness..

I am physically much better now.. My back no longer hurt as much as before.. thanks to the little bright pink tablets siew wai gave me on sunday morning.. Cant remember what they were.. but they helped to ease the pain a lot.. thank you so much.. N for all those who prayed for me n comforted me.. thanks too.. Everything is good now.. N I treasure it all..

Also for my dearest coursemates.. Feli, Dorothy, Amanda.. love u all..
Sydney OCFers .. Linus, Tracy, Sam.. Thanks for listening to my ramblings over the last few days.. And uplifted me in prayer..
Connect group -- Deb, Liwen, Samuel.. muackz..
OCF AU -- Too many to mention but I remember each of u guys..

But above all, I just want to lift my praises to God who is the great healer and him who brought the forgiveness.. I was touched during Sunday worship and sermon.. especially during the last song about God as the healer and the one who brings forgiveness.. N the sermon pierced deep in my heart.. its just so timely and awesome.. all the knots are released n my spirit set free from the past hurts..

Psalm 30:1-3

1 I will exalt you, O LORD,
for you lifted me out of the depths
and did not let my enemies gloat over me.

2 O LORD my God, I called to you for help
and you healed me.

3 O LORD, you brought me up from the grave ;
you spared me from going down into the pit.

I am happy again!! Yeah!!! The burden and the hurts are lifted up from me.. Thank you for all who have shown me concern.. too many people to mention here.. Just wanted to let u guys know that I appreciate u all..

God has brought forgiveness and healing upon my life..Spirit restored..

I dunno what to say.. I m hurt.. really I m .. I m still trying to nurse the wounds in my heart n on my back.. I dun wan to seek attention yet at the same time I wish people would care.. I am a human being still.. fragile n weak.. Today in connect grp after some people left.. I just sit there by myself and keep quiet.. Not that I wan to keep quiet but my back was really hurting and I feel feverish all over.. I just didnt want to say or do anything.. I was uncomfortable n I was thinking through some issues.. After that someone actually told me that I look fierce that noone dared to come near me.. but what did I do? I just kept quiet thats all.. I need my moments of quietness.. I am an extrovert yes.. But I wan to be quiet at times..I was just feeling discomfort, hurt n I didnt know what to do with myself.. I didnt want to speak because with my mood, I may by accident hurt someone but yet I was wrong still.. On the way back, I spoke to the people in the car, I asked if I had in anyway offended them.. but no they were not.. its just one person feeling that .. it made me so negative..cos the person in some way assume that people are feeling the same way too.. like perhaps I am a wounded animal.. if they come closer I would probably explode.. But the fact is I was controlling a lot.. except towards the end when I really couldnt take it anymore.. Only God knows how exactly I am feeling.. I m hurt really I m.. its resolved now no doubt abt that but still I feel the pain and hurt.. Its hard to be happy and energetic when I am physically n emotionally weak n in need of support.. I am already trying my best.. so please dun expect a lot from me.. I am afterall a human.. I have my weakness..

I hope everyone understands.. I m really down.. I need ur support n prayer..If I have in any way offended anyone.. I am truely sorry..And I seek ur forgiveness..

One thing I am sure of.. I am trying my best to accomodate everyone.. at least I am trying.. I am not perfect.. so give me some space and allowance if I may ask..

Food

I like food..They make me happy.. when I am stressed or upset, I look out for certain food and avoid some others..What do I look out for?

In no particular order:

1. Salmon ( Must be raw.. I hate it cooked.. taste weird..)
2. Sushi ( U can try looking for me in sushi train.. u may see me there )
3. Nata De coco ( But must be lychee flavour.. other flavours not entertained )
4. Bubble tea from cubic ( usually I will buy green apple flavour with chewy bubbles )
5. Orange Chocolate ( Cant really find here.. sad )
6. Home cooked soup ( Have the Mummy feel.. taste not Important )
7. Flavoured milk ( only strawberry flavour wanted.. Dun mind plain milk on my good days
though)
8. Black sesame paste ( A lot of u dunno I like this.. I eat that in secret 3 times a week.. haha..
even when I am in good mood )
9. German sausage and pancakes with toppings ( when r we going Pancake house again? )
10. Wicked Wings ( haha.. yum!! )

These are not hints or anything.. Just have this sudden thought..so update u guys!!!

Its is a bad day.. really bad.. feeling so pressurize n overwhelmed with some stuff.. stuff even if I share wont help either.. It just brings more judgement on me.. Not that I never tried..

This is my blog.. Its my space to blabber whats on my mind.. its my deep thoughts.. A lot of stuff cross my mind every day..

I went for my immuno tute today.. so lost in the discussion.. I didnt prepare much I admit.. Serious lack of time.. then suddenly in the middle of tute.. the fire alarm went off.. so we had to evacuate.. then for some reason I lost my tute grp after that.. dunno where they went.. in such a fix.. to top it up I fell down twice this week..once on sunday in front of my close friends ( but they didnt care.. not a joke ..its true ).. n just now a bad fall down the stairs in Uni..

I think its enough for today.. rushing for my prac now..

It was a bad day for me..
Feeling terrible..
Stressed N upset..
Swallowing more than I should..
Multi-tasking almost all the time..
Contemplating stuff..
Never to feel forced..
Sharing n seeking advice..
Time management..
Letting go whatever I can..
Wishing I can sleep less and do more...
Talk less, do more..
More time with God..
God is the ultimate solution..

Matthew 16:26

What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?

I am not only a feeler but I am also a thinker. I have my reasons for doing certain things and I have my reasons for letting other stuff pass. I consider a lot. Dun pass any judgements on me for u know the scriptures well..Do not compare me with others.. for such comments can be destructive and really discouraging at times.. These things can't affect me much anymore.. I can better control my emotions now.. Not I say but from Siew Wai today.. What she is said is true..

Matthew 7: 1-2

"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."

Its a reminder not only for myself but for everyone else.

Dun ask me to give up the mission trip. I never will. Its my life and I choose to put Christ at the throne of my life. Respect my decision. It has been set since July and I will go all the way out for it. Even if u dun agree with it. U cannot and will not change my heart and my mind. I am looking forward to the mission talk this coming sat by Dr Calvin Mah as well as the mission trip planning coming up in my 2 week break. I m keen on my portfolio.. God is working through a weak vessel as me.. I will emerge Victorious through his power..

I welcome all constructive and genuine comments for improvement. N I m serious.. only with contructive comments from people who love me, I can improve and I want to improve.. not for myself but for the body of Christ..

My Princess...
You'Re Never Alone

You never need to hold on to anyone out of fear of being alone, My precious princess. I am with you wherever you are. I am a friend who walks in when the world walks out. I created you to have strong relationships, My Love, and I see your desire to be close to someone. If you seek me first and come to Me with your wants and needs, I will choose your friends for you. I will also bless those friendships abundantly. Don't settle for less than My best just to fill your schedule with people to see and places to go. I want to reach you with the reality of My presence in you first, then you will be ready for real relationships that are orchestrated by Me.

Love,
Your King and your Best Friend

I was hurt yesterday.. Physically not much.. But emotionally I was.. some of u reasoned things out with me.. thank you so much.. all your time n effort on me.. I know u guys really care.. I wont mention here what happened.. if anyone is genuinely concerned.. I may share with you..
I committed all to God last night.. Prayed for a long while.. told him entirely how I felt .. seeking Him with my whole heart.. After prayer, I looked into my devotion book.. I saw the above letter.. I knew its God speaking to me directly..

He said I never need to hold on to anyone because he is there for me always.
He said he is a friend who will be with me under all circumstances.
He said he sees my desires. He calls me by name to come to him with all my wants N needs.
He said he will provide for me the relationships with him as the centre.

My spirit is restored and lifted by God alone..

" And be sure of this:
I am with you always,
Even to the end of the Age."

Matthew 28:20

For those who are wondering when the due date for donations is .. it is gonna be on 30th Sept.. I have received a few replies donating to that cause.. Thank You so much.. Lets get the ball rolling..

Hey guys.. there is something I want to bring to ur attention.. Its regarding the World vision Australia 40 hours famine.. I just knew about it yesterday after my friend ask me to support her by donating to a good cause.. Basically the famine started last night from 8pm till Sunday 12pm.. This is your chance to give back to kids just like you in East Timor and Southern Africa. Every $40 you raise helps feed and care for 8 kids for one whole month! So how many kids can you help? I think the money raised will be of good cause.. so I would like to urge everyone to give every little u can .. every little counts..

Its sad and heart wrenching to see the poor kids suffering at Third world countries while we are having abundance here and we are just so blessed by God.. Funds raised in Famine 2006 will help poor families in East Timor, as well as in Mozambique, Tanzania and Zambia, where many kids are so poor they eat only a few mouthfuls of food everyday..

Therefore I will like to urge u guys to support these people in a little way which we know we all can.. I have done my part what about u? Its very simple.. Just a little of ur pocket money can bring a smile to the little children ..

If u would like to donate, please inform me .. so that I can let my friend know.. she is collecting the donations.. A receipt will be issued.. Remember that the money will be used to bless others.. How can we show that we love others if we have no action...

1 John 3: 16-18

16This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. 17If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? 18Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.

For more information, please check out at http://www.worldvision.com.au/40hourfamine/

Your donations will be greatly appreciated..

Thank You..

What is happening to me?

I am eating strange meals and at super odd hours ( no time to cook .. I want to cook but no time ). I just eat watever I can find..

I am sleeping and waking up at odd hours. Serious lack of sleep .. who wants to close up n look at my dark eye circles.. u r very welcome..

I have to bring my organiser wherever I go cos I have trouble remembering stuff .. all my appointments n assignments.. They take up too much brain space .. I rather write them down then remember them..

I have adapted to reading in the bus to save time...

All things I can forget N neglect except God.. I always have time for Him.. He is always first in my mind.. Thank God.. He always reminds me to look to him.. Thank You Father..

He makes me smile..

The past few weeks have been so busy.. The assignments r endless.. I m tired.. My friend is coming next week but frankly speaking I really have no time for her.. Tuesdays r my worse days.. Did my chem prac today.. Thank God I had a really smart partner.. an aussie guy.. we really worked well together.. n a fantastic demostrator as well.. seriously without them things could have been worse..God has blessed me.. I went for prayer meet today in the mist of my prac.. I had a short break in between for 30 mins.. so I thought it would be good if I joined them for prayer.. Was praying with Jan N Handy.. sharing some prayer points with them.. Handy said something which was very encouraging for me.. he said having to teach bs in another language which is foreign to u is actually a good thing.. For God is preparing me to go out for him in December this year.. He said.. do u think u will be able to bring forth God's word in Thailand in the language the u r comfortable in? u may not.. he gave me a different perspective which I did not think of myself.. I am glad I spoke to him..

Tina passed me a book yesterday on missions. It is entitled "His Last Command, Our First Priority" by Jack Hanes.. I read this book during my bus journey today. Its an inspiring book I would say.. I wouldnt update much abt it today cos I have only read a chapter of the book.. will update more soon..

Just want to leave this verse for all:

Mark 16:15

" Go into all the world and preach the Good News to everyone, everywhere."

I just came back from William's farewell party.. Mixed emotions.. I cried just now.. when william was telling me something personal.. it was shared in a big group but it was to each individual.. What he said brought me back to the times we enjoyed last year.. the time when we met the other OCFers in Singapore.. the times spent with Richard and the oldies.. the great times we had will always be remembered.. also the christmas eve spent with his sister n him.. I still remember where we went.. he came with his family to singapore just a few days before christmas and he rang me..I met up with his sister and him on that special christmas eve and we had quality time together.. brought them around.. its not the places but the time in fellowship that I remember n I treasure.. now thinking back.. I am glad that I did have time for William.. so glad that the time is well spent ..so glad for such a brother to come into my life.. he will always be remembered.. in my heart.. Just like Richard n chok has a special position in my heart.. So will William have his position.. Though I never say.. but Richard and chok comes to my mind at times.. My dear brothers that I will always miss..

The box of little notes n the photos have all the love we have for u.. Treasure it.. We love u...

Yesterday was a wonderful day.. I didnt do a lot but I had great fellowship... In the morning time I was at Uni, was with Yingying n Leny together trying to crack out our Chemistry Summative Tute.. It was due at 12 noon so we went a couple of hours earlier to try to discuss the stuff.. I dun like doing the 2 and 3 dimentional stuff.. It hard for me cos I can't visualise.. Gals are usually bad at such stuff.. Not making excuses for myself ok? I m trying very hard already.. haiz.. nvm.. anyway the whole sem chemistry is going to be on 3 D stuff.. Our lecturer was saying he will get us the molecular modelling kit but when is that happening.. hurry up la.. its in bad enough condition already.... Thank God my other 2 subjects Immunology and Genetics are doing fine.. understand almost everything so far..

I was at the Singapore Association stall the last few days but I wasnt doing anything much.. I wasnt there for long also.. Had other things to do.. But I spent some time chatting with Bridgette and Phyllicia.. Trying to be of some help.. But my heart wasnt into it.. probably cos I have so many other things in my mind.. things that I place of higher priority.. ya.. My studies and OCF obviously take a higher priority rite.. ahaha.. everyone must agree ok..

The last few days I did pretty much a lot of studies.. did my readings.. my tutes.. I like immuno tutes the best.. the sessions r always interesting and interactive.. everyone is so enthusiastic in contributing.. me also of course..I was reading some books also.. yeah..The time was well spent..

On thursday night when I was doing my readings.. Melissa rang me.. She wrote a song for william and asked if I had the time to practice.. so yesterday in OCF, we sang the song to william, looking at him intently.. He was moved, I can see that, straining his ears to catch the words.. I knew he wanted to keep the lyrics of the song.. so I passed him my copy.. I know he will treasure it..

People come and people go
Some of whom I now dont know
You came along became a friend
Never knew the impact you'll have on me
Somehow I wasn't the only one
You left your footprints on many more..

Thank You for walking beside us
Together through the joy and the pain
You're a gift, you will be missed
All your words will be treasured
All you've done, we'll remember
We wanna say thank you

This is the song specially delicated to William.. Tonight is the night delicated to William as well.. His last night in Adelaide.. Less than 2 days, he will be going home.. Yesterday he took some photos with us.. I had an individual photo with him as well.. a photo that both of us always wanted.. n I will always cherish the memories I have with this brother who has impacted my life.. I dun want to cry tonight but yet I know I will..I shall stop decieving myself..

William was my pianist during my worship session yesterday.. I had a great team, the worship flowed though we didnt have a good start.. so I started it again.. After the session, choy kor told me that there is improvement from the last time I led.. I was happy not because I led well but because worship is an important part prior to the things that come after. We got to set out hearts rite before God before anything can continue. God desires our worship and we are created to worship him..

I have so much to update today.. haha.. still want to talk abt my BS group.. I had 3 new faces in my group.. all young guys from HK.. doing foundation and high school.. they are like 17 years old.. can u believe it? so young.. but they are yearning for the word of God.. Thirsty to be filled.. Choy kor was in my group.. haha.. I dragged him in by force.. haha.. no la.. not force.. its charm..haha.. sounds nicer..Ok let me rephrase it.. it is he joined my group willingly k.. good.. the session was conducted in both Cantonese and English. The main part in English by me and any further questions in Cantonese by Choy kor and keith.. I understand Canto but I cannot speak it.. n now have having my new members.. I really want to learn canto.. I want to be able to communicate with them in the language that they r comforable in.. Just want to thank God for their open hearts, open sharing.. though short but its good.. especially for Leo and Paul. They are cousins but first time in OCF.. they just came to adelaide.. Now staying at the same homestay as Anderson.. Initially both Leo and Paul are shy but they are not anymore.. I m just glad.. very happy.. Next week , we will be going out for street E on thursday (thats confirmed.. from 1pm to 2pm).. and probably I will go on Monday and Wednesday as well.. Not sure of my schedule yet..

I got to get some work done now.. Just wanted to encourage all who are believers to be ambassadors of Christ. We are to make disciples of Christ.

Matthew 28

18Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

My friend is flying from Sydney to see me soon.. I am excited about it.. Gonna happen in week 5 n now is the middle of week 3.. However, week 5, 6, 7 r going to be my most busy weeks before the term break.. I was just scheduling everything in my organiser yesterday while waiting to go for Justin's B day party at Pancake House.. Well guys.. U wont want to imagine the shock I gave myself.. big time shock.... There is actually more assignments, more presentations n more reading this sem.. more contact hours as well..Been working hard from week 1 but still a bit behind in schedule.... Thank God, I have really good tutors this semester.. Jamie B for Immunology.. He is really good man.. can get us to participate n at the same time I dun feel stressed.. Last sem, I had Chris Wong for microbio n stressed big time.. Thank God I hardly see him this time.. except in pracs which is inevitable.. Dan is my tutor is genetics.. he is great too, always managed to explain the concepts clearly though his tutes stretch a bit long.. today was almost 2 hrs of genetics tute.. But it was alright.. managed to clear my doubts.. This sem I m pretty lost in Chemistry.. we r doing the 3 dimentional thing which is so foreign.. like molecular modelling stuff.. couldnt figure out the stuff.. Need to get that cracked out soon.. but I m just one of the many who is having this problem..

Father, U alone knows what I m going through.. I am relying on U to supply all my needs..

Yesterday was Justin's b day.. We had such great fun n fellowship.. For those who didnt come .. hey u guys missed out..especially on the sabo part.. I think its the worse sabo ever.. But Justin was pretty game for it.. so it was alright.. I met Ian today.. he still complaining that he stinks.. cos apparently,he was a co-victim last night.. haha.. But I guess it is a memorable birthday for Justin.. Its the love of our family..

This weekend is going to be quite emotional for many of us..

William is leaving for good soon.. I just know abt it today just before I went for evening service.. Felt a bit down after I knew that.. A lot of memories came back to me..Memories from last year all the way to this year..

I remembered the times where we studied for exams together, struggled together, the times where we confided in each other.. the things that he taught me through his experiences, the word of God he taught me, the skills in worship leading..the encouragement he gave me as a great brother in Christ.. a lot of things..

He is someone I respect for his great love for God.. He is someone I will miss.. He has someone who has guided me.. But all these memories remain precious to me..

But I know God will bring him to a place where he can use him.. I am glad that he has chosen to obey God. To go down this path is never easy..

William spoke to me just now.. He was holding back his tears.. I will miss him for sure.. Today when he told me he is leaving.. it came as a big shock to me.. I didnt expect it to come so soon.. I was in a daze during worship this evening.. everything rushed back to me.. Richard as well.. But I was focused during sermon... There are some people that he wanted to meet on sat night.. I just sent out an email to inform them.. Really hope they can come.. I know its important to him.. Just want to do watever I can for him.. Just feel sad now.. though I know God has his best interest at heart..

Food for Thought:

What Kind of Person M I?

Its only towards the end of week 2. But I am so loaded with Uni work.. Doing 3 subjects this sem.. Genetics, Immunology N Virology and Chemistry.. but there is so much reading n assignments.. Even weeks are the most choking.. cos odd weeks need to hand up double the number of assignments.. My weekends r always burnt doing these stuff.. I wish I can have more time in a day to have some time for myself.. but no.. cannot waste time..

Just need people to pray for me:

Prayer request:

1. Regarding approval for the mission trip by OMF
2. Time Management
3. Relationship with God

Thanks guys!

My Princess.. I will redeem the time for u..

I know that sometimes you look back on your life with anguish and regret -- so much time wasted on things that did not matter. But take heart, My Love. I am your redeemer, and today is a new day. So start now by seeking My plans, which are to give you hope and a future. Just as I used hardship in Joseph's life to lead him to a position of leadership, influence, and blessing, I've also called you. I will use your past experiences to teach you and not torment you. Remember, My Princess, I will always turn into good what others meant for harm. I will redeem what was lost and place you on the narrow road that leads to an everlasting life.

Love,
Your King and Your Redeemer

This letter comforted my heart so much this morning that I felt that I need to share it.. I should look ahead to what is before me.. Forget abt the past disappointments.. the past sorrows.. the past unhappiness..Think about the blessings that are in my life..

I have fond memories of sydney, of the place, of the people, of the camp...
I remember during my sydney trip this july, the Lord spoke deep into my life through 2 people. One of them I shared alot of things with. The other one gave me scriptures which I know is not by coincidence for some reason. The scripture is still dwelling in my heart now. Its from Jeremiah 1:

The Call of Jeremiah

4 The word of the LORD came to me, saying,

5 "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."

6 "Ah, Sovereign LORD," I said, "I do not know how to speak; I am only a child."

7 But the LORD said to me, "Do not say, 'I am only a child.' You must go to everyone I send you
to do and say whatever I command you."

8 Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the LORD.

9 Then the LORD reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, "Now, I have put my words in your mouth.

10 See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant."

The last 2 verses are strong words.. I dunno what life lies ahead for me.. But I know my future is secured in the hands of God..

I went for a mission talk this morning with Tina. I m glad that I did made it for the talk cause something happened last night within me that I was struggling with many things in my heart. Struggling to find my way through all the things that r coming now. In my decision to head for a mission trip.. I once had doubts abt myself. I feared of going to the trip with no preparation cos the training is in Sydney. The devil is trying to get me but the Lord comforted my soul this morning during my time of quietness and when I was doing meditation on this book called My Princess, Love letters from your King. I will share abt that a bit later. The mission talk this morning was by kenneth and Mark who are both missionaries to India. They shared their experiences and the struggles they faced. I learnt a lot. Though I cannot be there for training in Sydney, the Lord has opened up another way for me. Another avenue of training for me in sharing the experiences of other missionaries every thursday morning. Indeed God is wonderful and marvellous. He will prepare u for the things which is ahead of u.. Trust in Him!

Last Sunday, I spoke to Pastor Nick regarding the mission trip to Thailand.. He has given his blessings.. I am excited abt this trip.. trying to read up all I can to prepare myself.. I dunno wat to expect but I know God knows what is ahead of me.. Pls pray for me.. Its a big decision.. But I really want to do it.. it has been my desire since I was 16.. finally now.. I am heading towards my heart's desire.. When I was 16, when I had mission trips in my mind..But then I thought to myself.. dun be silly.. how can this ever happen.. I said to myself then.. U r so young n come on.. u know nothing.. But no matter how young we are, no matter how weak we are.. Our Almighty God will prepare u for his purpose..Trust in Him..

The following scriptures just surfaced in my mind and is making imprint on my heart. These scriptures I memorised them last year but they didnt come to my mind again until now..right now.. Its as if God is speaking..Its just timely encouragement for me to rely on HIM..

I Tim 4:12
"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity."

2 Corinthians 12:9-11
9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

My heart is just so stirred now..

U alone are God.. We declare the glory of ur name..
Reign in all the Earth..Jesus..

OCF is wonderful. Yesterday we commenced our first bible study session. This semester I am co-leading with Keith. Just want to thank God for giving us a wonderful group to nurture and grow together. We r just so blessed to be able to fellowship and mask in the presence of God. God has implanted in me this desire and I hold onto it tightly with all my strength and all my soul and with all my heart. Just want to acknowledge and encourage keith here.

Good job Keith! U have supported me as well as our group so well that I cannot feel that its our first time working together. I can see your total devotion. Thank you so much. I believe we can work well together. I seldom praise people. My praises are reserved for my first and everlasting love, God. I cannot describe the blessings God has poured our into our lifes.

Just want to leave something for meditation this weekend before I start cracking on Uni work.

Jeremiah 29:13

"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."

This last weekend before Uni start is pretty fruitful. Yesterday, I went to Lynette's place with 3 guys ( dun ask me who.. I am not supposed to mention them here.. one of them said " dun mention my name if not I will sue u!!! ) Let me explain why they must remain anonymous.. Pretty much a lot of funny things happened that day.. so if mention they may be pai seh mah.. so must be kept confidential..haha.. The primary purpose of going to their place was to meet them cos they drive back from melbourne n its gonna be a short trip to adelaide mah.. so of course must meet up.. secondary purpose is to pick up watever we wanted from their place cos its simply too much for them to bring over.. but however the guys fulfilled the tertiary purpose which was doing hard labour.. but it was good.. I am glad I brought the guys.. Imagine if I bring gals then goodness.. I would be doing the hard work..err.. Thank God..All of us had fun.. let me tell u the funny part.. here goes.. well after doing hard labour obviously the guys would feel hungry.. but the 3 of them didnt tell anyone until I spotted them peeling and eating grapefruit at the kitchen.. The conversation went like this:

Scene 1:

Me: R u guys very hungry?
Guys: Obviously we are , otherwise we would not be eating the grapefruit
Me: But its acidic.. U will feel more hungry after that..
Guys: But no choice.. we r hungry
Me: ( laughing until I cannot stop )

Scene 2:

Lynette walks into the kitchen and saw the 3 of them in desperation.

Lynette: R u guys very hungry? I have got apples.
Guys: How many have u got?
Lynette: err ..sorry only 1
Guys: Takes the apple

Now 3 guys sharing 1 apple.. one of them takes 2 bites , pass it to the second guy.. he takes 2 bites too.. n the apple was passed around until there was no flesh left.. everything was to the core.. I only stood there.. look at them n laugh continously

Next Lynette passed them a curry puff and some other food stuff n the cycle repeats..

I had a great laugh man.. Never see guys so hungry in my entire life.. but they were cute..

That was the highlight of Sat.. But I think they did a good job though they were pretty funny.. If I need to move next time.. I would know who to find..They did everything willingly without complain. Great brothers in Christ! Good job guys!

Time flies. This is the last weekend of this holidays. Next sem is starting on Monday n now looking at my timetable is getting me a little scared. This sem 26 hrs a week. I hope it doesnt get too much. Time management is important. Last sem I didnt do a good job in that department n in the end my results was pretty crappy.. Nvm just learn my lesson so I can manage it at least better this sem. Yeah!

Resolution for sem 2 in no particular order:

1. Quality time with God ( Prayer N Devotion )
2. Preparation for Mission trip ( * Pris u better dun do last min ... I will kick u!!!)
3. Gym, hopefully 3 times a week
( * Pris look at how much weight u have gain during exams n the sydney trip.. )
4. Keep ur room clean n tidy ok.. Be presentable ( Thank You very much )
5. Control ur temper ( Remember the fruits of spirit? Dun let ppl complain abt u la.. aiyo.. )
6. Allow ample time to do ur assignments.. Dun rush..
7. Get along n accommodate everybody..

Ok.. thats all I can think of now.. Anyone who sees me not doing the above just knock my head..yeah!

I was in a state of confusion yesterday. I didnt know what to do with myself especially last night after I came home. I was really happy during our games n dinner. But at night, I felt so alone. I felt so afraid. I dunno what to do with myself. Something came over me. Someone told me something that I didnt know. Something that I had to come to terms with. I am glad I am told.. otherwise I would still be in a daze now. Thank you very much. U know who u r ..

In the afternoon, I was at keith's place with Mo, Leeping, Karen, Yoshi, Paul and some others playing Cranium and pictionary. I havent played board games for a long long time. Its great enjoyment n the house was filled with our laughter. We had fun laughing at each other. I saw the strengths n weakness of us.. It was good.. I had a better understanding of them through the games..it was a fruitful time..

I had dinner with Aruna, Feli, Ying Ying and Anisha after that. They r my best friends in Uni. A pity that Amanda n Kristen cannot join us. They are friends whom I can look to for help in many aspects. I m glad that they r in my life. I am glad that I can confide in them when I am down and I can share with them the joy and happiness in my life. I love them so much. More than I thought I did in the past. The memories u guys give me will forever remain within me. I like the flowers, the cushions, the candles, the shower items, n the birthday card u guys hand made for me. Thank you very much.. U guys hold an important position in my heart n I cherish it.. I will upload our photos on my blog soon.. Looking forward to see u guys in Uni soon..

* Feli dun forget to meet me at Medical School on Monday .. Hugz..

This holidays has been meaningful to me.. Just want to share the joy I have in me despite circumstances..

There are some things I realised:

* U can never really know how much u love God until u r put to the test.. u can say u love God..
very easy to say but is it really from ur heart.. when things r going fine who cannot say that?
But when ur world is crumbling n u can still love God with all ur heart.. U have become
stronger in faith n in love.. then people can see Christ through u.. u will not need to proclaim
that u love God.. But it will flow through u naturally.. N people will praise ur Father in heaven..

* My brothers n sisters in Christ love me so much.. not by words but by deeds and I wan to be
able to do the same for them..

* I am praying about going on a mission trip this december with OCF Sydney.. unsure abt
certain things n the direction that I will be heading.. I only hope n pray that I will be able to go
in the way which God planned for me.. so please pray for me.. I got to make the decision soon..
preferably by end July.. If I were to go.. I got to prepare.. I dunno if I can do it at
this point of my life though my heart yearns to do it.. pray for me..

* Living in this blessed land allows me to worship God freely.. Its so comfortable but I wan to
venture out to the people who need the Lord but I am still lacking in strength..

I wan to acknowledge the people who have impacted my life during my short stay in Sydney.

Linus -- u showed me the love of God through ur patience, time and care.
Leanne -- through ur life and worship
Brian -- through ur thirst for God's word
David -- through ur living testimonial
Roopesh -- through ur devotion and teachings, a living example of a man after God's own heart
Sam -- through ur concern and life.. u made me so comfortable
Shimei -- through ur life n joy
Jing -- through ur joy and happiness
John -- through ur life and happiness
Clarence -- through ur knowledge of the word
Tracy -- through ur deep sharing
James -- through ur life n love
Tricia -- ur happiness
Yau-- ur joy within u

u have made urselves real to me.. thank you so much.. its not the place I miss.. its the people .. really.. only the people..

I just came down from Blue Mountain this afternoon currently resting at Jing n Shimei's apartment.. I love their apartment n their company because its just so cosy and they are r unbelievably nice..Yeah.. this time round my trip to Sydney is really fruitful.. I met so many OCFers .. too many names to mention here but they gave me wonderful memories to bring home.. they brought me so much joy in my life...they lifted me when I was down.. We prayed together.. we did everything togethered.. we shared so much over that few days.. peace filled my heart so much and I am so blessed to be surrounded by them.. they are part of shaping n moulding my life.. I will miss them terribily when I return to adelaide.. This trip to blue mountain showed me the beauty of God's creation and the unity of our family.. though I didnt know them for long.. they gave me a surprise on my birthday.. my 4th celebration this year..Really thanks so much.. This camp fostered so many friendships which I know will last very long and I am constantly encouraged by them.. Tonight we are watching the worldcup finals together.. its gonna be a time of going crazy together.. then tmr I will be going shopping with some of them at Bondi Junction as well as Bondi beach.. Looking forward to that.. I will be going back to adelaide soon and life will really get busy again .. I am glad I came for the camp.. I am glad I met them.. they made everything worthwhile.. My time is well spent.. masking in the love of God and in the knowledge of his word..All in all .. All Praise and Glory to God..

Its my birthday today! Who still remembers?? I got an sms from Danny and Shelley already but are there anymore coming? Let me update u guys about my sydney trip. I got here on the 4th July 06 evening at 6pm and by the time I was driven to Footprints ( The place where I am staying, it was already 7.30pm ) But Footprints is actually not far away. The only reason why I was delayed was because we were waiting for the other passengers. Yeah! So got there, got my key then went to the room. It was a family room cos there was 5 of us sharing. It was pretty spacious but when I opened the door there was noone in there apparently my friends went out without me. Actually I expected it but somehow it still appeared as a shock to me. Oh well.. u cant come sydney n stay home all day long rite.. so they were forgiven.. Anyway I was there to dump my luggage only cos my friend James came to pick me at my hostel to go for dinner..haha.. so I do have my own plans too .. Just that I love to complain..haha.. We went to a nice and quite class Jap restaurant dun ask me the name .. I dun remember at all.. all I remember is the tasty food.. It was nice N EXPENSIVE.. so thanks James..haha.. then after dinner.. it was a walk down Darling Harbour, Opera House, Harbour Bridge and many other places in the vicinity.. some places I obviously dun remember as u can see.. I would say that James would make a fantastic tour guide, constantly explained stuff to me..so there was much laughter n talk during the walk.. It was great catching up since we last met 5 months ago so it was good. The night life here is pretty vibrant. At 10.30pm, I could still see a lot of people coming out of Opera House.. Unlike adelaide which would be a super dead city by then.. cannot imagine how I am going to go back there n face the torture man.. No more shopping.. *sobs* I came back the first night pretty tired at abt 12 midnight.. Before I came back, we planned to go Fish Market the next day with his friends.. some nice gals n guys.. Sydney OCFers so I was pretty much looking forward to it.. I went shopping in the morning for gifts.. as u guys know I shop alot.. I was pretty excited when I saw the large shopping malls everywhere.. they have simply just too much stuff.. I didnt shop for long cos we had to go the Fish Market.. Talking abt the Fish Market just makes me drool.. I took loads of pictures there.. the food is good.. the scenery is nice.. We ordered eel, sashimi and a platter for 5 which includes prawns, mussels, squids and many more.. I havent had my hearts fill of seafood for a long long time.. so I really enjoyed that to the max.. My friends who came with me from adelaide n I intend to go back n eat again on tuesday cos we r leaving on wednesday.. we would seriously miss it.. I wish it can be found in adelaide.. we didnt go to much places after that cos I was tired.. was just walking around sydney Uni.. then dropped by James by to rest n to talk.. cos I could hardly move.. it seems like food burns easily here n I was constantly hungry but its great cos I can eat again.. thats fantastic.. I had homecooked dinner with James and Brian.. Both big chefs.. I just sat there as a Queen n did nothing.. However looking at them cook makes me look bad cos I am obviously lazy around but then again I was not a fantastic cook and I was in the mood to cook either.. so I just rested .. Listened to carpenters music.. Dinner was home cooked carbonara, roasted chicken, broccoli and garlic bread.. pretty much a lot for 3 people.. I was pondering when can I cook that well.. but oh well not that I cannot ..just that I eat simple.. I just cannot be bothered..haha.. But thanks to James and Brian... After dinner, we were discussing where we should go next.. The James said something like this " u r here in sydney u should go to Gay Bar for a look..." Initially I didnt want to but then after that I thought.. Y not? So I was like sure.. but the 2 of u must go inside with me.. u should have looked at their expression on their face.. looks horrendous.. "nah we will just accompany u to walk pass n U look inside ok? But going inside is a big no no.." I was like ok.. Better than nothing still.. so I just looked inside.... not going to share here wat I saw though.. "Not NICE" *blah* Anyway that was pretty much wat I did the last 2 days.. I will be away at Blue Mountain from today till 9th July so wont be much updates till then.. Brian is coming to pick me up to go Bondi beach n shopping again before our trip soon.. n gonna have Jap food for lunch again.. Its gonna be an exciting day again... Alright I will be back soon k..Wont forget to enjoy myself..

I have finally packed all my luggage n gotten ready for my sydney trip.. Guess wat time did I pack..2am.. N how long did I take .. surprisingly only 30 mins..haha.. Gotten my winter clothes n my new beanie in there.. cos its gonna be freezing at bluemountain.. Brr.. 2 degrees.. all day long..haha..To check out more info on the exciting things that I will enjoy at bluemountain, visit www.bluemountain.com.au ... However dun envy too much.. try to enjoy ur holidays in adelaide n back home ok? Though I know it would probably not be as interesting as mine.. opps.. I said something wrong.. dun bash me up or.. u will have no present from me.. I was checking out the best places to shop last night n I am so glad that the hostel which I will be staying is at Pitt street n the whole stretch will have loads of shopping.. awe... Guess this time I will spend pretty much a lot of money.. cos I will be too tempted to buy a little of everything..haha.. I will be away for like more than a week so dun miss me too much.. I will try to miss u guys.. but I guess I will be too busy enjoying myself.. Tonight after I land at 6.15pm, my friend will be fetching me to makan at Jap restaurant to celebrate my birthday.. I havent eaten good Jap food for a long time.. For those who dunno.. sashimi is my favourite... thinking abt it just makes me hungry.. haha.. anyway.. I will try to update when I am away k.. cos the place I am staying have unlimited internet..hehe.. be back soon..

Exams r finally over.. The past 3 weeks seems like at endless nightmare initially.. scary.. now its over.. but awaiting the results is more of the torture.. its like facing the reality in 2 weeks.. I m fearful of it.. really scared of facing it.. I did my best this semester but I feel so negative of my results.. I dunno.. I have been praying praying.. the peace comes n the devil knocks later n fear creeps back.. I feel so useless.. Its something so inside of me.. the feeling of worthlessness... Just losing confidence of things.. I need people to encourage me to support me in this journey.

There are some people I particularly remember during this tough journey. My study group keith, yoshi, hubert, bruce, william, sally, YJ, Paul, they have been with me on this journey.. People that I really appreciate.. They r just so dear to my heart. They have seen me when I m down.. seen me when I was worn out n on the verge of giving up. I m glad to have this bunch of friends.. Always thank and Praise God for them.

On the day of my first paper, I am touched to have the company of Moses, Leeping n Yoshi who walked me to the exam hall.. the time they take to accompany me comforted my anxious heart.. Thanks guys! I am so glad u went the extra mile for me.. It was crucial that day.. serious no joke!

My first paper was a horror shock for all of us.. So horrible that when I think of it now.. I shiver.. For all I have written in my 3 papers.. I have absolutely no idea how much is it worth. Thinking abt it now is purely useless n destructive to my life.. I dun wan it to be this way.. It should never be like this.. I hate it.. All I can do now is to pray continuously and I trust that its in God's hands. His plan for me will enfold slowing..Beautifully because I am precious in his eyes, his beloved daughter who can run to him at any time.. I recieved some sms during the exam period from OCFers n I was particularly encouraged by addielle..The words she used I always felt so uplifted. Its like God speaking to me face to face. Especially the sms she sent on Wed morning when I was at the point of breaking.. Suddenly I saw the light of God shining through her words.. I believe she is the vessel used powerfully in my life by God at that moment.. Thank you so much sis.. This period, I felt closer n more belonged to the family of God stronger than before.. Many days when I woke up.. I could feel HIM in my room literally.. Its unbelievable.. But its true.. Exams are actually a good thing..

This exam period I was staying out a lot with friends.. firstly with yoshi then west terrace then in the village with Leny until I became really sick last thursday until Sunday.. Its a bad time to fall sick..Each day was feeling worse than before.. though I rested most of the day.. took all my pills.. kept warm.. drink hot water.. but still ended up feeling horrible.. my brain literally couldnt function at all.. couldnt think.. once I think a bit.. headache comes back.. fever on n off.. coupled with flu n sore throat n that was enough.. I was just plainly fragile.. Sad.. but that period of time.. I can see the concern n love of many.. Thanks guys!

Now exams are finally over.. I am going to sdyney soon.. 4th July.. Be back on 12th July.. Going for Bluemountain camp.. I am excited abt it.. I wish it can come soon..

I am hurting on the inside..who knows except God? Who understands except God? The last two weeks I have been scolded for no reason by some people whom are really close to me. Because of 1 person, I was misunderstood by my close friend today. Its so hurting.. I saw her today but I didnt say a word to her not because I have not forgiven her. I have forgiven her and I still love n treasure her as my dearest sister in Christ but I want to protect myself in this time where I need to focus on my exams and to find rest in God. I forgave her though she made no apology. Today was the only time she did not talk to me at all. Imagine how I feel.. A close friend seeing u yet not speaking to u at all..I dun wish to say more.. I am weak and frail myself though I didnt show very much. I need the support and prayers of my closest as well. I am a human being. There is a limit to how much I can take and how much I can accept. I am trying my best for my exams as well as leaning against my Master n my God.

Psalm 62

5 Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;
my hope comes from him.
6 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.

After our exams, I really want to find time to spend with her just to talk to her to listen to her. But not now.. I really couldnt do it now..

I was told some things which I couldn't believe just now. Its unbelievable because it is critical of my close friend's character. Its about someone whom I thought I know so well. But somehow or another I am affected. I guess its because of the close relationship we shared. I believe its the devil's doing to tamper with our mind, to deceive us into believing his lie. I guess the devil tests us at one point or another to cause conflict n doubt between us. I spoke to a friend just now. She told me to trust my instinct and not on people's words. I m trying to. I shall put this issue aside for now. Focus on my exams first. Its the immediate issue..

The only way I can put the issue down is to tell God about it. Pour out my troubles to him. Thats the only way I can feel uplifted in my spirit.

Proverbs 3

5Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.

6Seek his will in all you do, and he will direct your paths.

Psalms 45:13 -15 ->
' All glorious is the princess within her chamber; her gown is interwoven with gold. In embroided garments she is led to the king; her virgin companions follow her and are brought to you. They are led with joy and gladness; they enter the palace of the king.'

My Precious Princess and Daughter -

I do love you. In fact, you are the apple of My eye - very precious and important. You are never out of My thoughts. I want the very best for you. Even in the darkest moments, remember that.

I know you don't feel My love all the time but that doesnt't mean I've stopped loving you. It only means that something has temporarily blocked our communication. Examine your heart to see what has come between us.

In the meantime, remember that nothing can take My love away from you or diminish its depth. And when you doubt it, just remind yourself that I proved My great love for you by sending My only Son, Jesus, to die for you. Yes --for you. Even if you were the only person ever alive, I would have still sent Him. Because I love you. Have faith in Me, trust Me, know My love.

Lovingly,
Your Heavenly Father, the King

A few days ago, I realised that I have successfully passed the 3rd test I had from God this year. I passed it 2 weeks ago but I only realised it much later. It happened so naturally n I didnt feel forced at all. Its a blessing. Initially when I got the test in March, I found it super hard. One test is always harder than the other. My 1st test from him was hard enough n I was once struggling badly. But I was able to overcome it with his strength and our relationship was even better than before. The second test I had tested my pride n my adaptability. I made a decision that I felt that it was against my will. If not for the holy spirit within me. I would have been rebellious and refused to listen to my Father. But at the last minute before the decision was made. I was deeply convicted in my heart to go in the way he wants me to walk it. Its a good decision. I am glad I was submissive to his voice n I am still now.

Deuteronomy 26

17 You have declared this day that the LORD is your God and that you will walk in his ways, that you will keep his decrees, commands and laws, and that you will obey him.

Psalm 5 (New Living Translation)

1 O LORD, hear me as I pray;
pay attention to my groaning.

2 Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God,
for I will never pray to anyone but you.

3 Listen to my voice in the morning, LORD.
Each morning I bring my requests to you and wait expectantly.

4 O God, you take no pleasure in wickedness;
you cannot tolerate the slightest sin.

5 Therefore, the proud will not be allowed to stand in your presence,
for you hate all who do evil.

6 You will destroy those who tell lies.
The LORD detests murderers and deceivers.

7 Because of your unfailing love, I can enter your house;
with deepest awe I will worship at your Temple.

8 Lead me in the right path, O LORD,
or my enemies will conquer me.
Tell me clearly what to do,
and show me which way to turn.

9 My enemies cannot speak one truthful word.
Their deepest desire is to destroy others.
Their talk is foul, like the stench from an open grave.
Their speech is filled with flattery.

10 O God, declare them guilty.
Let them be caught in their own traps.
Drive them away because of their many sins,
for they rebel against you.

11 But let all who take refuge in you rejoice;
let them sing joyful praises forever.
Protect them,
so all who love your name may be filled with joy.

12 For you bless the godly, O LORD,
surrounding them with your shield of love.

I realised that this year there will be a few of my close friends who will not be around with me on my birthday. They r either going back home or some where for holiday. I am a bit upset though I understand them. But still aiyah.. nevermind.. I just got to learn to be more understanding. There is always something to learn in life. I guess all of us like to feel important and wanted. At least I do..What about u?

I havent been blogging for so many days. Exams are drawing near n assignments are coming to an end. At this moment its 22 days away from my exams. I can feel the tension building up among us but I choose to trust in God who can support all of us through this. There were days in this semester that I feel so uptight in myself because too many things are coming at one go. For those whom I have confided in. U know wat I am referring to. I simply felt so lost. This semester there were days that all I could do was to cry like a baby to my King. It was so late in the night that I do not want to turn to anyone else except God. Not many have seen the weak side of me. Except those who are really close to me. People like Siew Wai, Sally n a few others. I always thank God for placing them in my life. People who I can trustingly tell them my deepest thoughts n feelings. Such people dun pass by my life so easily N from the depths of my heart I treasure them.

These days I have been studying in Uni till 10pm at night with Sally, Yoshi, William, Paul, Justin, Keith and some others. Last Monday I had to come home alone. I was very afraid. Its like so dark and creepy. I held on tightly to the word of God. To calm myself down, I read my bible on the bus and prayed before I reached my bus stop where I need to walk inside. The bus stop is a short walk from my place. Like about 8 minutes walk. But that night the journey seems to take forever. On the bus, God reminded me of the part when he guided Deling ( Brother Yun's wife) when she was walking home in the dark when she was a new convert. It speaks about the light that God provided for her when she went in the wrong direction. The light only appeared when she was heading in the wrong direction. It occurred to me that God knows what is ahead on me in the midist of these darkness. I can be assured of his love and guidance.
That night as I journey on that dark path, at the corner of my eye I could see a van with the headlights still on at the side of the opposite path and shortly afterwards I saw a group of guys walking towards me. I dun know them at all. This scenario sounds so much so dramatic if I had not experienced it myself. I would not have believed it. But God knows what I am saying is the truth. I just want to caution all my beloved friends. Please please dun go home late regardless of guy or gal ok. Its dangerous. I thank God for bringing me through. Through these incident, I can see clearly that many of my closest friends are truely concerned about me. People like Sally, Moses, Danny, Yoshi, William, Paul. Thanks guys! It is a testimonial of how God provided me and showed me the love of the family of God.

Psalm 40

2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the LORD.

I feel faint. I just looked at the Past Year Papers on my Uni. Guess wat.. There r actually no MCQs in my papers. Frightening man.. All short answer worth 10 marks each n long questions up to 40 marks each. Can u believe it? My heart almost jumped out. I dare not procrastinate for revision liao.. Horror shock just now. Thank God I discovered it early n not the day before exams. Wah by that time would be heart attack man! The past few days, I have been studying in Uni till 10pm at night with Yoshi, William, Sally and Joannies. I feel that studying in a group is definitely more productive than doing it alone. There is more motivation around them. Haha.. I got to put more effort in preparation for exams really soon. But there are 2 quizes n a presentation coming up next week on top of the assignments due next week. When is the time to study man! But no worries. I will pull through. My Father will support me through it.

2 Samuel 22
David's Song of Praise

2 He said: "The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer."

7 In my distress I called to the LORD;
I called out to my God.
From his temple he heard my voice;
my cry came to his ears.

17 "He reached down from on high and took hold of me;
he drew me out of deep waters.

18 He rescued me from my powerful enemy,
from my foes, who were too strong for me.

19 They confronted me in the day of my disaster,
but the LORD was my support.

20 He brought me out into a spacious place;
he rescued me because he delighted in me.

21 "The LORD has dealt with me according to my righteousness;
according to the cleanness of my hands he has rewarded me.

22 For I have kept the ways of the LORD;
I have not done evil by turning from my God.

23 All his laws are before me;
I have not turned away from his decrees.

24 I have been blameless before him and have kept myself from sin.

29 You are my lamp, O LORD; the LORD turns my darkness into light.

30 With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall.

I found encouragement in these scriptures. I believe that with God I can do anything. Without God I am nothing. Absolutely nothing. Remind me each day to give thanks and praise to our Lord because he alone is worthy. Thank God for placing in me all the discipline that I need to grow in my relationship with him.

The exam timetable is finally out! Really need to thank God for giving me such a well planned exam timetable. Everything is so well spread out. Its an answered prayer I would say cos a few days before the exam timetable was out I was praying about it. I knew that if there were no days in between, It would seriously be hard to do well for my exams cos there is a lot of memorising to be done. But thank God he has spared me the agony. Its the time to start preparing for exams before time really runs short. My assignments lately have not been as many as before which is good. There is time in between to relax n chill. Think about it I was so busy the last few weeks that I havent gone to gym. I m lacking of exercise man. I should start again next week. Better to keep my body healthy than to fall sick during the exam season. A few of us have started a small study group in the library lately. I was considering to join them or not. This is because when I study, I need to have my textbooks by my side to cross reference but they are heavy to bring to Uni n also because I am lazy la. N more importantly I cannot study for long hours. I get bored easily n I will snack a lot when I am outside. At home at least I can cook some so called healthy stuff to eat or eat fruits. Can save money also. But who knows! I may change my mind anytime.

I will be stopping my driving lessons for a while till after exams. I want to focus on preparation for exams of course I wont forget God. He has become such a big part of my life that to forget him is like losing myself..haha. Next week, some OCFers are going for a movie. I think its a good chance to chill out and to spend time with my loved ones. After exams would be our semester break. It is good cos my birthday falls on the early part of july. Last year's birthday was unforgettable. I had the company of so many people whom I loved. I hope that this year would be the same but I wonder who remembers it. In less than 2 months time, I will be older by 1 year. I hope I will be more matured in thinking, spiritually and lots more. Even though many people told me I look young but still the numbers are increasing. Haiz.. never mind..at least I still look young. Last year, there were still some guys who think that I am 18. Can u believe it?? I find I hard to believe too but its a compliment so I shall take it with grace. Hopefully I still look as young this year.

Stress is the word to describe my situation now. I know that should not be the mindset neither should it be the feelings I have now. But it gets a bit hard at times when patches are rough. I will get over that no worries. Its just some thoughts that I have now. Perhaps its because tmr my exam time table will be out. Prayerfully I hope that my papers will be as well spread out as last year.

Recently my friend has been admitted to RAH due to a bad accident early this week. She is still in coma now. So guys, do pray for her. I really hope that she can have a speedy recovery.

I was going through some of the materials I have on anger this morning.

Ephesians 4

26"In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, 27and do not give the devil a foothold.

29Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. 30And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. 31Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. 32Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Its sometimes hard to control anger. I guess all of us have something to learn from these scriptures.

Matthew 6

6But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.

14For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

19"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I know I am unlovable at times. I know I m stubborn, not gentle, loud and my temper can be rather short at times. I am aware that I still lack some fruits of the spirit. I am still in the process of learning. Who can say that they are not in the learning process? I want to change but I need the assurance and support of my friends around me especially my closest friends. But of course who can be closer except God. Who can change me inside out except God? Who can understand me except God? Who can survive in this world alone without God? All of us need support, love and encouragement. No matter how strong in character or in faith in God. We need people to tell us that they love us. And not only tell but show in action. Remember the E Camp Theme? Why Love? True Love In Action. I think this entry sounds depressing. But I m not depressed neither m I unhappy. Its just some fleeting thoughts I have thats all. I do appreciate people who tell me when I am wrong. But please do it gently. It will have more effect definitely. A true friend gives constructive suggestions. In fact, I am happy with what I have now. I am so blessed. I am so blessed that I cannot contain it. God is close to those who call upon his name.

I was doing my quiet time on Thursday morning before I started to revise for my microbiology quiz on Friday. I was reading Proverbs 31: 10-31. Proverbs has a lot to say about women. How fitting that the book ends with a picture of a woman of strong character, great wisdom, many skills and great compassion.

This verse particularly struck me Proverbs 31: 30.

“Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.”

In this present dark world which we are all living in. We can easily be deceived into looking into outward appearance and not the heart which can be destructive at times. But its really comforting to know that God looks at your character. Character is more than good looks. Our appearance is important to us and we spend time and money improving it. But how do we develop our inner beauty? Patience, kindness and joy are the beauty treatments that help us become truly lovely on the inside.

In 1 Samuel 16: 7, God judges by faith and character, not appearance. While everyone can see your face, only you and God know what your heart really looks like.

1 Samuel 16:7
“But the Lord said to Samuel, Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”

1 Peter 3: 3-4
“Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.”

I guess we should really reflect on whether we are looking at outward appearances or are we looking at quality individuals? Are we judging on outward appearances? I hope not.. or at least we are trying not to….

I had a busy week. I was struggling to get all my 4 assignments done in 2 days and getting my micro test ready. It was hard but God has brought me through. Today as I was doing my test, I was mumbling a little prayer to God, asking him to help me cos I didnt do much revision as there was a lack of time. By God's mercy, I did not have much problem with the quiz. I didnt do much during my 2 weeks break cos i was sick for a week. Trust me .. U wont want to hear my sexy voice that week n u wont be interested to see my pale face either. I am much better now but still not completely well yet. During this period, I experienced the grace and love of God so abundantly through his beloved children n his words of comfort. God is just simply so powerful n his grace sufficient for all his children.

At this moment, I am currently at Yoshi's place. We r trying to bake a cake for Tina's B day. It smells good. Not because we r good but because the cake was baked with all the love of the sub comm n of course ladened with our Father's love which is sovereign n everlasting. This time is a time of great fellowship. I always feel excited on Friday because of the happenings in OCF and the encounter with God. I guess all I can say is our Lord n Creator is worth of all praise.

I was talking a lot with Yoshi today. She was telling me abt the driving instructor. Its really bad news. He is so touchy ..oh man! U wont want to be called darling or love by someone u dun know n dun love at all.. argh! Now i m learning my lessons from this cheeky instructor.. I hope everything will be fine.. God will Bless n Protect me!!!!

Today is the very first day of my driving lesson. I was excited yet nervous about it. It went well I would say. I learnt quite some stuff today which initially I thought would be hard for me cos I am not really a technical person I would say. I am usually bad at stuff like these. So today for me is very much like a challenge. Haha.. But I did have a little achievement today. I actually drove all the way to West Terrace to see Fion. Unbelievable for the first try.. Especially for someone like me..haha..

I found the solution to a problem which has been bothering my mind for so long. It not like I found the solution but rather the friends around me reminded me. Really thanks to them!

Tonight I would need to struggle through the many assignments I have. Hopefully it would be 3 down tonight. I can do it. I believe..

" I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13

I love this song. Its a song of our deep love for GOd.

DEEPLY IN LOVE

In my life You've heard me say I love You
How do I show You it's true
Hear my heart it longs for more of You
I've fallen deeply in love with You

You have stolen my heart
I'm captivated by You
Never will You and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with You

You and I together forever
Nothing can stand in the way
My love for You grows stronger each new day
I've fallen deeply in love with You

My two weeks break has passed so quickly. I havent really started on my work. These days I spent lots of time with OCFers, spending time with God, reading his word, in prayer. It really makes me happy n feeling satisfied. This Friday is my second time leading worship in OCF. As I was choosing the songs some days ago, I felt God's presence in my room guiding me in my choice of songs n scriptures to read. The flow is simply just so smooth n the feeling wonderful.

I have some thoughts on my mind lately. Some thoughts which I cannot confirm but I did speak to someone about it as u know, 2 brains r better than 1. Haha... I guess I usually think of how other people may feel instead of what I really think n what i eagerly want. Sometimes its good. But other times it is not.

I have also gotten a driving instructor lately. Lessons start next Tuesday which is a public holiday. I am excited about it N I hope everything will be fine. I feel a bit nervous actually cos I m always not good with technical stuff.. Blah!

Guess what just now my laptop hang on me too. Just as I wanted to get online, the screen went blank! Obviously, for a computer idiot like me, I panicked and rushed for the phone to call my friend for help. Thank God that my laptop is alrite now *smiles*

Anyway I better get back to work before holidays r really gone.

Today is saturaday. I have been back from Easter Camp for about 5 days now.. This year's Easter Camp is very meaningful to me. There are so many lessons I learnt.

Lesson 1: Be really patient and tolerant especially when ppl r obviously giving u trouble.
Lesson 2: Be organised.
Lesson 3: Be approachable.
Lesson 4: Be totally reliant and submissive to God, to listen to his soft voice. To listen for his
instructions and not go in the way I want.

This camp has brought me more things that I expected. Firstly my committee, I really learnt a lot from them. I saw how the committee members, Zac, Amanda, Samuel, Moses, Lishan, Sophia, Jasmine sacrifising themselves to make this camp happen though we depend on God always in prayer. The memories they give me is unforgetable and the experience wonderful n priceless. Now that the camp is over, I find myself missing them. I miss the time where we spent together in prayer, crying out to God. Earnestly seeking him and interceeding for the non-believers. Sunday was miraculous. In camp itself, it is just like a mini revival. People were redelicating their lifes back to God as well as souls being saved.

This camp has also brought many people in my life. Relationships are being strengthen each day. There was always sharing among us. I felt involved in people's life and its a pleasure to spend time with them. * Smiles * There are some ppl I really appreciate very much, my comm of course, Grace, Joanna, Jovina, Gerald, our advisors, Sally, Sharon and many more.

I also learnt alot from the sermons especially Sunday's sermon. It really struck me deep in my heart.

Luke 10:41-42

".... you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her."

It just struck me that I should not lose focus on God when I am so busy serving him in all I could. It reminded me of my first love. Really thank God for his gentle reminder when I m loosing my track.

"Be shepherds of God's flock that is under your care, serving as overseers - not because u must, but because u r willing ... but eager to serve, not lording it over those entrusted to u..."

1 Peter 5: 2-3

Tmr we r having a gathering again in Flinders. Looking Forward to seeing them again.

These days I find that my relationship with some people is getting strained.. Not because I dun care but cos they r too free n I am too busy.. They are not OCFers but they are people around me. I wish I had no such feeling but it still existed. Probably they dunno that I care so much perhaps to them its a small issue or not even an issue. I want to get it resolved. It is disturbing my spirit..Argh!!

Just now, I packed my stuff for Easter Camp. Surprisingly loads to pack..I am excited about Easter Camp.. all the hard work that the committee put it will be worth it..

Tonight is the night for more prayer.. more conversation with God..

I was really happy the past week despite the busyness n lacking of sleep. I guess it is the understanding of the total reliance of God that has sustained me till now. Yesterday was "mummy" birthday. Really just want to thank all who have contributed in one way or another to the scrap book. Someone once said that the contents in the book showed the relationships she has build up here. This is really true. All the heartfelt words and all the effort put in by everyone really means a lot to her * Very Touching*

On Friday I was "Drowsy" or rather sleepy during my practorial and I was caught red-handed by my lecturer. But thank God, we are friends so it was fine.. Just chatted about what I was doing the nite before only..hehe.. But I guess I was realli too much.. before my real prac ends I slipped away with my friend.. But before u make any judgement on me.. let me explain myself. The assignment that was to be completed that day was a bioinformatics assignment which can be done at home and is due only after the 2 week break which is at the end of April.. I was really tired that day so when my friend suggested on going off early I obliged... I think I gave myself enough excuses..*sighs* But after that I went to gym to destress before heading of to OCF early * smiles *

Also as this week draws to an end, it means that Easter Camp is fast approaching. I think its not too early to count down now. My heart is full of excitement at this moment but prayerfully I request for all to keep Easter Camp in prayer. Prayer for our Speaker and prayer for the people who are coming. It would be a life changing experience for all I believe in one way or another. The Lord works in ways which we cannot fathom.

Easter Camp Here We Come!!!

Isaiah 40: 30-31

'Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.'

This morning when I was still in bed pondering whether to go for my first lecture, I was so tempted to skip it because I was so exhausted ( having like less than 5 hrs of sleep a day is a great torture ) that I didnt want to move. This scripture suddenly surfaced in my mind. I remember the last time I read this verse was in Sept last year when Siew Wai shared this with me during my period of dryness. I still remember that time how I was comforted by this 2 verses and how God spoke to me through her. I was praying to God last night for his restoration and today he spoke to me when I was semi conscious. Its amazing how God works for the good of his people. Whenever I need him the most, he is always there, comforting me, encouraging me. Just feel so blessed and treasured like the apple of his eye.

Another incident that is so vivid in my mind is the time God spoke to me on that night when I got the news that my dad passed away. Despite the circumstances, I was covered with his love. That night God spoke to me through Jeremiah.

Jeremiah 33:3

'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.'

That week when I was back in Singapore, all I wanted was more of HIM alone.

This is unbelievable I guess to many people but once you have experienced it. Life will never be the same.

I was very frustrated with myself today. My test went haywired.. Full of silly errors.. Calculation mistakes.. I guess I wasnt focussing my mind during the quiz.. Never mind.. There are simply loads of work to complete and I am still learning how to cope with the work load.. Especially today, I felt that I was relying on my own strength.. I felt like a fool man! Why should I rely on myself when I have the support of my Heavenly Father? I need to quieten my heart today.. I really need too.. I know that if I quieten my heart to listen to my Father.. I will be restored soon.. will be.. I know..

Today I got back my Practical results for my first Chem prac.. I would say that this is my worse prac since last year and the reason is because my demostrator did not specify the sections which he wanted us to submit.. I need to put in more effort and use my time wisely..I also need more of HIM .. Really .. I need a lot more of HIM..

It would be my prayer tonite that I would feel refreshed tomolo...

I was thinking a lot for the past 2 days.. things are happening round me.. but yet I cannot write it on my blog.. sometimes it really bothers my mind but wat to do.. its not something so open that I can share openly here.. But I still thank God for placing me where I am now, for giving me family here whom I can relate to, who understand me and most precious of all, love me and accept me.. My mind was disturbed last wednesday.. Yeah, I know its another spiritual attack from the Devil, this is my first spiritual attack this year though I had a couple for such last year.. Everytime when I take on a new task or rather I take on a new responsibility in my life, it just simply strikes me. I remember there is this scripture in the bible which says " Resist the Devil and he will flee from u."

I came across Matthew 10: 29-31 3 days ago. It writes:

Verse 29: "Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father."

Verse 31: " So don't be afraid: you are worth more than many sparrows."

Because we are so valuable to God, we should brave difficulties in his light. We need to focus our mind on Him who is our Redemmer, the Lord of all creation, who is magnificent, wonderful and glorious.

The first week of Uni passed so quickly.. I was sick the whole of last week.. Feeling terrible at times though I didnt bother to show it. Last friday, my brother came down to OCF to see me before he moved to Flinders on Saturday. I havent seen him since he left Singapore on the second week of Feb. I was happy to see him obviously..haha.. He is not my blood brother la.. But he is my Brother in Christ.. U know wat, last friday some of them really thought that we were siblings. But YJ was the funniest.. he even said that we resembled each other.. Gosh! haha..

Last weekend was busy too.. Went to Chong Yau and Lynette's place for the E camp meeting in the morning.. We settled very much all the stuff already. This coming friday will be the beginning of our registration and also this friday is my first time leading worship in OCF.. I am really excited about it.. This year, I have taken on more responsibilities than I thought I would be this year.. Despite my busy schedule at Uni and committment at OCF and in church, I am enjoying every moment of my life now.. Glad to be absorbed in the love of God.. Each day is filled with anticipation..

Lately there has been lots of prayer thoughts on my mind...thinking & thinking.. Giving thanks and Praising God for who he is and how he has blessed me..

Yeh!!! Finally today I got a new mobile phone with a wonderful plan.. I went to three mobile today. I have been eyeing on the latest LG phone since a week ago, finally today went down with all the documents and signed the 2 year contract with them.. My new mobile is really beautiful. Its in my favourite metallic green.. CooL Colour I must say! Actually at first I wanted to get the Nokia 6280 but it only came in black color * sobs* Too manly for me so in the end I decided against it.. Anyway the LG phone I have now has the latest features which I also love very much and now I can call all my friends in Australia, Singapore and Malaysia.. cos of the Free International Calls.. Great DeaL.. I guess I will be best buddies with my phone real soon... I will still be keeping my prepaid Optus line for the convenience of my friends though...

I have been having a flu since Sunday.. Sniffing here and there.. spreading germs I know but I cannot help it.. Mum has been nagging me to taken Vitamins but I have been putting it off again and again.. I better take some tonite ( I dun wan to be a germ carrier in OCF on Friday ) Anyway I am looking forward to the Bible Study as well as the weekend coming up..

Uni started a few days ago.. Its getting tiring and busy.. U wont believe it but I have already at least 2 tutes and 1 report up my neck n its suffocating me slowing but hopefully not surely.. Just now the chem lecture was realli horrible.. it went so fast especially towards the last part.. Its the NMR thing again.. my memory is failing again.. lots of recap from last year.. Guess I have to dig up my notes again.. sadly but surely.. I will be having my first pract this yr later in the afternoon.. should be fine.. I hope it ends early then I can go home and rest before rushing off to church this evening.. I am wondering if I should make a committment for the Accelerate program at Edge church every fortnight.. Dun think I have the time la.. But still.. Will see how it goes.. This year I am still unsure if I am taking a disciple.. probably not.. too many things to focus on.. Will be praying about it though... Need some encouragement.. Anyone knocking?

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I am back in Adelaide once again.. Its feels great to be back.. I havent seen my old friends for like 3 months but the bond between each of us is still strong and intact.. truely grateful for that.. This morning I went to AACC church with my "mummy" cos Ivy is giving a testimonial.. Going to give her support and also be encouraged by what God is doing in our lifes.. To bear witness to his love..Today's sermon in church is on 1 Corinthians 12 which I must say is a realli meanful sermon to me.. My Pastors back home have preached the sermon before, but it didnt come across as so powerful until today I saw a different light.. perhaps it was enhanced by the testimonials which was shared by Michelle and Ivy..

I saw baby Issac today.. I realli must say that he has grown loads.. he looks cuter and more chubby now.. adorable little boy.. thinking about it.. I havent seen him for 3 months already..it realli explains why he has grown so much...haha..

I came back this year full of anticipation.. its realli going to be a busy year ahead.. my timetable is very packed and with upcoming Easter Camp as well as taking a Book study group this year.. A lot of stuff awaits me to discover.. to grow.. This week I will be taking time to catch up with friends.. especially with the family of God here..Before I get too caught up next week.. Also tmr I am changing room.. got to move all my stuff all over again.. I know its a bad idea.. but this time round I am staying in the same corridor as Sally, Siew Wai and Jega.. it makes everything worth it..

In 2 days time.. it will be ah gu's birthday.. tmr I got to shop for her present before its too late.. there is so much to be done this week.. Got E camp meeting this tuesday so cannot celebrate with her.. but nevermind..will celebrate with her on Wed.. I love u ah gu!

Its tiring these days..Back breaking.. feeling lazy.. slackz.. Its hard to get the momentum going...But it got to start some where...

This week has been a fruitful week.. Guess wat! I just got an confirmed air ticket flying on 17th Feb to Adelaide.. I have been waiting so long for this ticket.. This year I am returning to Adelaide full of anticipation because of OCF and the Upcoming E Camp. Life will get pretty busy soon.. I have started packing my luggage.. or rather my grandma is the one packing.. I only fish out the things I am supposed to pack *Grins*

Last week I went to visit Annie and Kelvin's new born baby gal.. She is adorable .. just a little too sleepy.. I am glad that she is a healthy and rosy baby.. thats wats most important..Beautiful creation by God..

I got an email through friendster just now.. some stranger asking to be friends.. I dun like this.. Jumping out of the blue.. anyway I am returning home soon.. so I shall not be bothered by that..I guess this will be my last post in Sg cos nothing interesting is happening in Singapore.. so write wat???

Its gonna be Home Sweet Home...

Today is my last day of work at IDA. Finally during this period of holidays that I need not wake up so early everyday. Feels great! Yesterday both Esther N Alfred called me.. All on the same problem. As u all know,now is the month of February where all the new students are influxing aussie land once again. Well we all got a friend whom at this very last moment told us that he got no accomodation!! This a real headache man.. Imagine having no accomodation..not even temp accomodation and no airport pick up 8 days before departure. Worse nightmare ever! Was trying to help him la.. but still this kind of last min thing still happens -- AS USUAL.. But thank God,as I was talking to a brother this morning.. Gd news (He has got a friend who is looking for a housemate -- sounds like a good idea rite) at least can pair them together.. that is like one thing settled..gd.. Everything looks good for the weekend now..

I also just got an email from Paul this morning.. Glad to know that I will be doing the book of Romans with Addielle with Raymond supervising this sem.. There is so much that I can learn from the both of them.. Will be looking through the book of Romans before I go back.. ( time to study furiously my beloved study bible ). I have been wanting to look at book studies since last year especially Romans and Acts.. I have always felt that these books are rather deep. However, I anticipate the BS sessions this year.. Romans this semester and James next semester. Looking forward to this year of great growth and fellowship.

Also, this Sunday there will be a meeting with our big big brother Richard!!!! Hopefully Sylvia will be joining too.. Miss her warm personality..

I have always not been enjoying Chinese New Year. Its has been the most hated festival of the year. Because during each New Year, I feel so plastic especially on Day 2 of Chinese New Year. On this day each year, my dad’s brother’s family will come and visit. Their family is a vegetarian cum Buddhist family. Every year they visit, my uncle would never fail to preach his Buddhist stuff and try his very best to convert our family in Buddhism and eat vegetarian like him. Its most sickening, not because of what he does but how he is so critical of Christians and claims that he knows more about the bible than the Pastor does. With the words that emerge from his mouth, u will give him no respect
( its not a joke! ). When my dad was alive, he used to avoid him like plague, at first we do could not comprehend but slowly, little by little, the reason became clear. Apart from this, when my dad passed away last year, his so called brother was only interested if he left any assets behind! Sometimes I really wonder he has any conscience left! Maybe this is the reality of the world, the ugliest side of mankind.

However, they can never have any ability to dictate my life. Nothing which they do can take me away from God.