I havent been blogging for the past 10 days already. Been busy with lots of stuff. Last Sat, there was a predeparture talk at Orchard Hotel so obviously as OCFers we all flogged down to hang around and help if we can. I was or rather we were very surprised as there we only a few new students for adelaide uni while UNISA and Flinders had lots of newcomers. I felt rather disappointed but still we minged around..

Chinese New Year is just a few days away now. Most of the shopping is done ( Majority stuff bought " Clothes for Ms Prissy" ) Very sad I know but its time to stock up before I go back to Aussie Land.. Looking forward to that day.. 22th Feb..

I was thinking about a lot of stuff the past few days.. Dunno y.. Reflecting I guess.. 2 days ago, Esther told me that she has a friend who is undergoing depression now.. Some problem with the boyfriend.. I was reminded of the times where I had my fair share of depression too.. That happened when I was 17 yrs old and again when I was 20. The world was dark then but when I looked further, there was light. There was light in the darkness because God is there. Because he lives that everything was beautiful and perfect once again. In him, I found my peace and picked myself up. In his word, I rest my trust and my confidence in. To those that have never undergone depression, they can never understand. Even though I do have my mood swings still but after my experiences in the past. Now I can submit all my pains, all my sorrows, all my needs all unto God who carries them upon his shoulders and delivers me. In the past year, all my friends in Adelaide knows me as a lively and happy gal which is true but glory to him who brings me all the joy.. Thanks so much Father! May I be a living testimonial to you.

Hopefully with such experience, I can help Esther's friend as much as I can...

For those who are concerned about why I had depression then.. It was due to a combination of family, school, relationships N health.. all these is put behind me.. Buried in the sand..

I have been quite unhappy and depressed for the past few days.. Unwell in body, stressed, irritated with the companies.. But most of all, I am PISSED with myself.. Like all humans, I started to doubt God N his ever presence.. Feel so down these days that everything seems so empty.. My mum doesn’t seem to understand me.. I longed to go back to Adelaide where I can have all my freedom and I know that I will be happy back there .. I hate to be ordered around.. to be told wat to do.. I am not a kid.. The more I m trapped.. the more I wan to escape.. I am a rebellious person for the people who may not know.. I guess I m seriously frustrated with myself.. I m not used to everything done by grandma n mum at home anymore.. I just hope to have my say in all the things.. I have already been independent for 1 year overseas.. there is no way that I m going back to the same old person again..

I haven’t been feeling well since I came back.. I dunno y.. I threw up last friday.. My pharmacist Nana says that I m stressed.. N prescibed some medicine for me.. been taking it but not fully recovered yet.. so sad.. I hope I will be fine soon..

This few days it has been cooling.. raining most of the time..I have been sneezing a lot cos there appears to be a flu bug in office.. Feeling so uncomfortable now.. I wish I can take off but dun think I can la..

My boss seems to be not in office today. From morning until now I haven’t seen her yet.. no calls no nothing… either she is too busy or something is going strangely wrong.. beats me!! Also the pay for my temp job is still not in my account yet.. Moi is freaking poor now..*sobs*

Weekend is coming soon.. better tahan for now..

Flu Bug stay away from me...SHOOO!!!

Was trying to do enrolment today.. Was hoping to get the perfect timetable but things turned out worse than expected.. I dun wan to acknowledge this but seems like no choice.. Feel like crying man! Somedays were freaking long with no breaks in between.. Seems like I will be broken in no time..*sobs*

I met Richard by chance last week.. It is such a blessing to see him again after so long.. Felt so at home to see him in Singapore.. He still looks the same though a bit more stressful than b4.. He will be meeting up with us.. old friends during chinese new year period when he comes back from New Zealand ( Business trip ) hehe.. Frankly speaking I am looking forward to that meeting.. Listening to all of us sharing... I miss OCF's sharing loads..

Anyway, tonite is gonna be fun.. Party at ... someone's house..hehe..