Psalm 5 (New Living Translation)

1 O LORD, hear me as I pray;
pay attention to my groaning.

2 Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God,
for I will never pray to anyone but you.

3 Listen to my voice in the morning, LORD.
Each morning I bring my requests to you and wait expectantly.

4 O God, you take no pleasure in wickedness;
you cannot tolerate the slightest sin.

5 Therefore, the proud will not be allowed to stand in your presence,
for you hate all who do evil.

6 You will destroy those who tell lies.
The LORD detests murderers and deceivers.

7 Because of your unfailing love, I can enter your house;
with deepest awe I will worship at your Temple.

8 Lead me in the right path, O LORD,
or my enemies will conquer me.
Tell me clearly what to do,
and show me which way to turn.

9 My enemies cannot speak one truthful word.
Their deepest desire is to destroy others.
Their talk is foul, like the stench from an open grave.
Their speech is filled with flattery.

10 O God, declare them guilty.
Let them be caught in their own traps.
Drive them away because of their many sins,
for they rebel against you.

11 But let all who take refuge in you rejoice;
let them sing joyful praises forever.
Protect them,
so all who love your name may be filled with joy.

12 For you bless the godly, O LORD,
surrounding them with your shield of love.

I realised that this year there will be a few of my close friends who will not be around with me on my birthday. They r either going back home or some where for holiday. I am a bit upset though I understand them. But still aiyah.. nevermind.. I just got to learn to be more understanding. There is always something to learn in life. I guess all of us like to feel important and wanted. At least I do..What about u?

I havent been blogging for so many days. Exams are drawing near n assignments are coming to an end. At this moment its 22 days away from my exams. I can feel the tension building up among us but I choose to trust in God who can support all of us through this. There were days in this semester that I feel so uptight in myself because too many things are coming at one go. For those whom I have confided in. U know wat I am referring to. I simply felt so lost. This semester there were days that all I could do was to cry like a baby to my King. It was so late in the night that I do not want to turn to anyone else except God. Not many have seen the weak side of me. Except those who are really close to me. People like Siew Wai, Sally n a few others. I always thank God for placing them in my life. People who I can trustingly tell them my deepest thoughts n feelings. Such people dun pass by my life so easily N from the depths of my heart I treasure them.

These days I have been studying in Uni till 10pm at night with Sally, Yoshi, William, Paul, Justin, Keith and some others. Last Monday I had to come home alone. I was very afraid. Its like so dark and creepy. I held on tightly to the word of God. To calm myself down, I read my bible on the bus and prayed before I reached my bus stop where I need to walk inside. The bus stop is a short walk from my place. Like about 8 minutes walk. But that night the journey seems to take forever. On the bus, God reminded me of the part when he guided Deling ( Brother Yun's wife) when she was walking home in the dark when she was a new convert. It speaks about the light that God provided for her when she went in the wrong direction. The light only appeared when she was heading in the wrong direction. It occurred to me that God knows what is ahead on me in the midist of these darkness. I can be assured of his love and guidance.
That night as I journey on that dark path, at the corner of my eye I could see a van with the headlights still on at the side of the opposite path and shortly afterwards I saw a group of guys walking towards me. I dun know them at all. This scenario sounds so much so dramatic if I had not experienced it myself. I would not have believed it. But God knows what I am saying is the truth. I just want to caution all my beloved friends. Please please dun go home late regardless of guy or gal ok. Its dangerous. I thank God for bringing me through. Through these incident, I can see clearly that many of my closest friends are truely concerned about me. People like Sally, Moses, Danny, Yoshi, William, Paul. Thanks guys! It is a testimonial of how God provided me and showed me the love of the family of God.

Psalm 40

2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the LORD.

I feel faint. I just looked at the Past Year Papers on my Uni. Guess wat.. There r actually no MCQs in my papers. Frightening man.. All short answer worth 10 marks each n long questions up to 40 marks each. Can u believe it? My heart almost jumped out. I dare not procrastinate for revision liao.. Horror shock just now. Thank God I discovered it early n not the day before exams. Wah by that time would be heart attack man! The past few days, I have been studying in Uni till 10pm at night with Yoshi, William, Sally and Joannies. I feel that studying in a group is definitely more productive than doing it alone. There is more motivation around them. Haha.. I got to put more effort in preparation for exams really soon. But there are 2 quizes n a presentation coming up next week on top of the assignments due next week. When is the time to study man! But no worries. I will pull through. My Father will support me through it.

2 Samuel 22
David's Song of Praise

2 He said: "The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer."

7 In my distress I called to the LORD;
I called out to my God.
From his temple he heard my voice;
my cry came to his ears.

17 "He reached down from on high and took hold of me;
he drew me out of deep waters.

18 He rescued me from my powerful enemy,
from my foes, who were too strong for me.

19 They confronted me in the day of my disaster,
but the LORD was my support.

20 He brought me out into a spacious place;
he rescued me because he delighted in me.

21 "The LORD has dealt with me according to my righteousness;
according to the cleanness of my hands he has rewarded me.

22 For I have kept the ways of the LORD;
I have not done evil by turning from my God.

23 All his laws are before me;
I have not turned away from his decrees.

24 I have been blameless before him and have kept myself from sin.

29 You are my lamp, O LORD; the LORD turns my darkness into light.

30 With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall.

I found encouragement in these scriptures. I believe that with God I can do anything. Without God I am nothing. Absolutely nothing. Remind me each day to give thanks and praise to our Lord because he alone is worthy. Thank God for placing in me all the discipline that I need to grow in my relationship with him.

The exam timetable is finally out! Really need to thank God for giving me such a well planned exam timetable. Everything is so well spread out. Its an answered prayer I would say cos a few days before the exam timetable was out I was praying about it. I knew that if there were no days in between, It would seriously be hard to do well for my exams cos there is a lot of memorising to be done. But thank God he has spared me the agony. Its the time to start preparing for exams before time really runs short. My assignments lately have not been as many as before which is good. There is time in between to relax n chill. Think about it I was so busy the last few weeks that I havent gone to gym. I m lacking of exercise man. I should start again next week. Better to keep my body healthy than to fall sick during the exam season. A few of us have started a small study group in the library lately. I was considering to join them or not. This is because when I study, I need to have my textbooks by my side to cross reference but they are heavy to bring to Uni n also because I am lazy la. N more importantly I cannot study for long hours. I get bored easily n I will snack a lot when I am outside. At home at least I can cook some so called healthy stuff to eat or eat fruits. Can save money also. But who knows! I may change my mind anytime.

I will be stopping my driving lessons for a while till after exams. I want to focus on preparation for exams of course I wont forget God. He has become such a big part of my life that to forget him is like losing myself..haha. Next week, some OCFers are going for a movie. I think its a good chance to chill out and to spend time with my loved ones. After exams would be our semester break. It is good cos my birthday falls on the early part of july. Last year's birthday was unforgettable. I had the company of so many people whom I loved. I hope that this year would be the same but I wonder who remembers it. In less than 2 months time, I will be older by 1 year. I hope I will be more matured in thinking, spiritually and lots more. Even though many people told me I look young but still the numbers are increasing. Haiz.. never mind..at least I still look young. Last year, there were still some guys who think that I am 18. Can u believe it?? I find I hard to believe too but its a compliment so I shall take it with grace. Hopefully I still look as young this year.

Stress is the word to describe my situation now. I know that should not be the mindset neither should it be the feelings I have now. But it gets a bit hard at times when patches are rough. I will get over that no worries. Its just some thoughts that I have now. Perhaps its because tmr my exam time table will be out. Prayerfully I hope that my papers will be as well spread out as last year.

Recently my friend has been admitted to RAH due to a bad accident early this week. She is still in coma now. So guys, do pray for her. I really hope that she can have a speedy recovery.

I was going through some of the materials I have on anger this morning.

Ephesians 4

26"In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, 27and do not give the devil a foothold.

29Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. 30And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. 31Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. 32Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Its sometimes hard to control anger. I guess all of us have something to learn from these scriptures.

Matthew 6

6But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.

14For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

19"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I know I am unlovable at times. I know I m stubborn, not gentle, loud and my temper can be rather short at times. I am aware that I still lack some fruits of the spirit. I am still in the process of learning. Who can say that they are not in the learning process? I want to change but I need the assurance and support of my friends around me especially my closest friends. But of course who can be closer except God. Who can change me inside out except God? Who can understand me except God? Who can survive in this world alone without God? All of us need support, love and encouragement. No matter how strong in character or in faith in God. We need people to tell us that they love us. And not only tell but show in action. Remember the E Camp Theme? Why Love? True Love In Action. I think this entry sounds depressing. But I m not depressed neither m I unhappy. Its just some fleeting thoughts I have thats all. I do appreciate people who tell me when I am wrong. But please do it gently. It will have more effect definitely. A true friend gives constructive suggestions. In fact, I am happy with what I have now. I am so blessed. I am so blessed that I cannot contain it. God is close to those who call upon his name.